So I see the moon set and rise
....On the outer limits of the world
Please don't tell me you'll be my demise
I feel like a tree left gnarled

Am I a gust of once once was?
Tune into the radio because shit's going down
Tell me I've escaped from hell's jaws
And do you hate me because my eyes are brown?


Did you exchange
What you've meant to me
Tell me I'm within your reach or range
Unchain me and let me be free

Zeppelin

Hey you, the storm has come and gone
It did leave debris on my porch
Like a worm, you have drawn me out
I will now wait for the sun to rise again and scorch

You will detest all of my wounds
And disapprove of me just being
A dusty library creates what I defend
So tell me, with your intellect what do you recommend?

I ask you not to break my bleeding heart
Although, I know yours is inured
Deliver me and wane me from a color chart
Take a deep breath, go undersea, and find me  a cure

I've got nails the color of orange
Sublime in a tangerine dream of Zeppelin
I do believe you think I'm foreign
You and you alone give me some adrenaline

My Room

In my room
I sit and contemplate
I cease to bloom
I'm isolated by the populous that congregates

In my room
All I see is black and white
Is it my eternal tomb?
If only you knew

How I detest this bloody room
It encapsulates my soul
It's the perpetual enforcement of doom
Oh how I strive to be whole

Scars

I hate my scars
So, now I intend to run until I drop
Fuck, I wish I could just step foot into a bar
Where I would then swoon to be your prop

But, do you really want me?
I feel like a used teather ball
I encourage isolation, so I may just exist and be
Perhaps I have now hit the so called "wall"

Tell me, do you think I'm used goods?
Reminded by a child, or are you more focused on the scars and marred?
So what do you require of me in the woods
But know beneath the anguish and pain I still see the light of the moon and stars

Naysayers

Surrounded by angels without wings
Praying on the mystical power of a sage
I've been in the clutches of the devil's puppet strings
....Just praying to be off this stage

I run away to sooth
And I cut to get through the pain
I pine for the time when I was curable in my youth
And my future was wide open; there wasn't anything I couldn't attain

An obstacle course flooded my life
Left me depressed, a mess, and complex
So I choose to relinquish the beast upon my skin with a knife
I just couldn't see past myself to understand the effects

Let the dead moon rise again
This life of mine, indeed, is chilling and raw
With the convoluted complexities I ask for an amen
.....And yet to my bloody naysayers, I dare you to say aha

Truth

I wish I could make it rain
Wash your tears away and alleviate your pain
I once had an affinity for my vein
But, thankfully, that habit has waned

My family struggles with my existence
Ironically, so do I
Where I once dreamt of acceptance
I now ask the question why

I can't tell if you care, or are you just influenced
Do you just feel bad because of our understanding of youth?
I do pine for you to be my constituent
But know underneath it all I am good; it's the truth

Introduction

There's something so beautiful in the idea of an introduction
A passe remembrance of good qualities
A mere smile gives you a beauteous deduction
But I dare you to take your best hypothesis

Dig beneath the thorns of shit
You'll find my bejeweled crown patina ed
Like a goblin without a spirit
Leave the rex and bring the reginae

I bruise without knowing
So....Do I disdain life that much?
I want my self confidence to be forever giving
But I don't know if my goodness will ever be such

Too Much

I think I am too much for you
A melange of problems I just can't seem to escape
What will I reap as I sough?
But I don't think we could leave this world without a scrape

The smell of a cigarettes lingers on my fingers
And I have this overwhelming feeling you want me to go
Perhaps I can garner my ineptitude by me triggers
And please tell me, have I caused you too much woe?

I'm sorry I am broken and scarred
Searching for a better epoch in time
Just let me know am I just someone you will discard?
Like a shoe rife with grime

Understand I have a disorderly plight
Discombobulation riddles my head
Are all of my words merely trite?
Or am I just putting words in your mouth that you've never said

I Care Too Much

Sometimes I feel trapped in lonely isolation
Driving just to nullify the pain
I just pine for you to give my soul some hydration
I tend to care too much, and I've let you turn my mind to stain

Baby Boy I'm here
Lonely, lonely that I was
But answer me, have I caused too much for you to endear?
I apologize for being as besmirched as black tea

I want, for all, to be healthy
Confronted by warmth, not cold or wind
And with you I can't feel empty
Just let me know when your feelings want to rescind

Your Wonderful Just as Yourself

Do you realize...
You spin me around
Have I demonized?
And did I cause you wounds?

Although I care so much about you
Is it time for selfish measures?
You're amazing how you've come through
And its you I treasure

Congratulations, you're off doing marvelous things
While I'm here struggling with my inferior self
I'm so sorry if my pain made you sting
But know your wonderful just as yourself

Finally, a Happy Poem for You

You have asked me to script a happy tune

One in which makes my cheeks blush 

I love sleeping with you until noon

And, particularly, I love the fact together we may be hush

You're too smart for me

And you laugh at my eccentricity

We first reunited by the sea

I shiver at the thought of being known as your toxicity

Devour my soul

Because I like you too much

I know your attempting to make me whole

And all the while, I pine for your soft touch

..................................I truly can't believe I have said this, but its true  

Composition Book

I no longer have clothes in a Bordeaux
Left alone on a hill of lemons
I understand why your taking  it slow
Because my life is riddled with demons

Its hard to breath at times
I recollect you from the past
You step foot in my dreams and sing me a soundtrack for my dreams
Will I be stagnant or unsurpassed?

A marble composition book holds my thoughts
I've been classified a danger to myself
Will I just be trash you toss?
Understand you, I need you; please don't put me on the shelf

Cluster fuck

Locked up
Knocked up
Certainly not prepared for my close up
So hand me your death cup

Stick beside my wounded soul
Can't control the aura of the room
I'm just a character in a role
God only knows how you've presumed

I'm a cluster fuck so to speak
Fell into the lost
I suppose you could say I'm on a losing streak
I think I've paid for my sins, but at what cost?

Grasp

I can no longer grasp
What I need is some saving
Take my hand and clasp
One day could I be a maverick or a maven?

Do I prefer what's solid, or just the shade
Both body and soul dwell in a dark place
Nullify the pain so it may one day fade
Please light up my face

Haunted by angels of ill
Nighttime reigns upon its dark and lethal throne
Thoughts of  loneliness and death perpetually fill
All with an utterance of a sad and chilly tone

Character of Doom

People now define me as the character of doom
One who wears down the inky skies to gray
Delivered fruitless struggles to disengage and doom
One that must hold onto the grass in order to not stray

Deposit me to the sea of hell
Ferocity expounds, and no lulls of tranquil intervals exist
I've became he symbolic tone of the death bell
But when you need my macabre help, it's you that enlists

Certainly there's life beyond the belt of vapor beneath us
Is it treachery or blithe?
I wish I could pine for life with a sensation of lust
But this life is profound with perpetual strife

Web

Woven in a web of grievance
Attempting to rise my head above these inky waters
Is it as simple as having obedience
Or are my words merely fire for it's fodder?

Vivid dreams in the dark of night
Where any sense of joy erodes
Can't wait for dusk to come, where there's a sliver of light
But that too will just elude

Oh how I wish dream upon the day
Where happiness is the rudiment emotion
Time where evil is beckons away
Let me plea for this devotion

Saving

I can no longer grasp
What I need is some saving
Take my hand and clasp
One day could I be a maverick or a maven?

Do I prefer whats solid or the shade?
Both body and soul dwell in a dark place
Nullify the pain so one day it may fade
 Please light up my face

Haunted  by angels of ill
Nighttime reigns his lethal throne
Thoughts of loneliness and death perpetually fill
All with an utterance of a sad and chilly tone

Soul Left Depleat

there's a thin slice of flesh
Lying here on the floor
Blood lay upon the thresh
It's the only way my emotions can pour

My thoughts become translucent
As you banish me to the back
You watch my every movement
I shutter with a panic attack

Life is bitter and tough
An inferno full of heat
I suppose I've had enough
A soul left depleat

Engage

Stoic and aloof
Caught up in a catapillar of a mess
I pine for my heart to be rust proof
I think your perfect. but I don't mean to digress

My family is loosing all of it's leaves
In an attempt to discover inner peace
Familial groans and grieves
As my future lyes in a crease

I don't have to drive
But I suppose this is the golden age
You took my heart and revived
I suppose I must learn how to engage

Epithets of a Song

You're the one I want
Can't keep my mind off you
Through my dreams you haunt
And without you I would have lost faith in mankind

Lace my epithets with a song
Deliver and embody the truth of life
With you I just want to belong
Eradicate all of this inner strife

I blow you a kiss goodbye
Fervor gnaws at your limbs
You tend to only come by as I cry
Just pray this life will provide me with some wins

The Ground

Is there hope within the prison of despair?
Living life within suburban obscurity
Caught up in a living hell's snare
Fraught with perpetual impurity

Perhaps I will die a recluse
Covered in shards of glass peering up at me
Living a sloth's life in the obtuse
Just nod your head and agree

See your slender body
Peering at mygaping wounds
I'm certain I'm not everything you thought I would embody
Need to keep even keel with the ground