FUCK YOU

Dude
You know who you are
So, FUCK YOU

Listen Man

Listen man
I don't think I can save you
And yet, I don't want you to view yourself as less than
But the only thing true in this world is, two sick people will perpetually exhibit feelings of blue

As much as I want
I can't help you
And yes, I do laugh  with you, you pseudo idiot savant
But, if you boiled us both together... We would make a wretched brew

So just because we mingle well...
I must say, we could never make it on our own
So Hey.... Throw down the daggers and become vitally compelled
With or without me, this life is your thrown
                                                 ...............Thus: Live it the way you would want

Stop Reading My Shit

Who keeps reading my shit
It blows
Don't worry though, I left behind the rages of fit
Now I tend to adopt a Taoist perspective of 'just let it flow.....'

Talk to me
Are you vengeful?
Ask for me by name
I want to be your pittance of boastful

Someone in my past has passed
But, tears just won't stream
All he did was lambaste... He didn't even know what that means
Oh well, it was  my reality as it seemed

Scapegoat

I can no longer be your scapegoat
You are family, but I think it's mere hate
Just laugh at me, because Oscar Wilde is the one I quote
But you should understand you are in a wretched state

It's so bloody hot outside
...And my pain melts away
Unfortunately, let's be honest, I don't think you will ever be a bride
Because we all have defects in our brain

I like to read
You like to sleep
And so I plead to you... Just go smoke some weed
All I can do for you is just weep....
                                                      But I still love you family member

This Poem Blows.... But It's Called See

Red wine has spilled everywhere
And I don't know where I get all of these fucking pens
Despair is no longer something I deserve
Fuck you my bloody contact lens

Show me the way
Guide me to see
Sing me a ballet, so I can stay
Let's shake on it, and just simply agree

We've known one another for awhile
Although at a fairly gargantuan distance
Yet, I have always admired your style
And thanks to you, I am no longer weak enough to take the path of least resistance

Laconic Laments

I MUST stop smoking
Your laconic laments make me a bit sad and question
Your sardonic demeanor leaves me choking
... And now I am numbed by your feelings of aggression

A prior life led so prodigal
Now, has become stripped of all lavish things
So, pluck out the malignancies one by one follicle
Leaving me limp with a phantom limb

So, take me away
And I will continue to cough on my sleep
Even though I posses bad (as all do), the good far outweighs
Thus, don't weep... I'm yours to keep

Clusterfucked

The devil knows my name
I think he is wearing your shoes
I want your unkemptness to be tame
And catastrophically clusterfucked by the booze

When something gets really good
You must know something next will malignantly occur
Take the pedestrian way, yes you should
And yet another line is blurred

Get me well
Improved by the bars of the incumbent
Marked by the beast, just to hear them quell
Oh fuck, I just sound so redundant

Blue to My Sky....Ha (So ridiculous, but true love)

Hey dog
Can you eat the peanut butter all up?
Suddenly this love of ours has created such fog
In such a trance, all I can mutter is 'Sup' or 'Yup'

We thus dance to the off beat musically inclined
And I tend to sing the words "Your sooooo baby"
Please don't tell me your merely blind
Because I simply think you're inevitably amazing

Is this only a dream?
Both you and I?
You make me, a bit hesitated, but still beam and gleam
You have become the blue to my sky

Baby, Oh Baby, Ha

Baby, I walked down to the river
Just to see the remnants of your face
And, when you touch me I utterly quiver
And I can't escape your innate good grace

Thus baby, let's shake it
Together, preferably, or without
And just you come, and wait a bit
I want this thing to just come and sprout

You are the one, and the only one
I'm so lucky it's you
Let's enjoy this fun, please don't escape to merely run
I think we have something we both just simply knew.... Is just perhaps true and blue.....

Smirk

Sweats dripping off my pallid face
Can't seem to keep myself grounded or cool
All I know is that I'm in this fucking rat race
I just don't want to be looked at like a fool

I love you kid
I'll fight for this, back and forth, and then again
And so I ask, do we have to keep this thing enclosed with a lid
Can't we just see it clear and plain?

Despite all of my reckless shit
You work!
No need for another fit
We should just enjoy this life as we both rest our heads and smirk

Numbing Ache

Despite anything I do
Despite anything I take
There is still this dull, numbing pain, that just accrues
And this pain, I can't seem to shake

Divert
Avert
Nothing soothes the ache to redirect, and revert
Why couldn't it even subvert?

No
No, you see
It will never cease, but I warn you it comes on real slow
...I pine to eradicate it... So I could just be... Free

My Daily Grind

The car was noxious with the smell of shrimp juice
Delicately rubbing the day's sweat off my heinous face
All I'm hearing is the clank of items loose
Feeling the emotions of the daily grind; just a sense of debase

"Yes Sir," I smell like seafood and cheese
I work over yonder, I'm a mere catastrophic waitress
So make a left here, please
Slowing up to my home, here comes the wave of self-deprecating hatred

Think, thank the lord, I had a taxi take me home from work
I have now expedited my ability to rush to a sterile sense of home
Where, in reality, I am the lone inhabitant that lurks
As the door then opens; I am smacked by my life's reality; Hell is chrome

Hey Jim

Hey Jim,
Will I ever be free?
...Of you, as obsolete as a quadruplicate limb
And now I'm laughing because you never relinquished the clamorous key

You let me go down with thee
And awakening, hatred towards you multiples
Now, in Hell, you attempt to placate and plea
But everything you touch is sodomized

Love, between us, NEVER existed
I was just a tool to your gambit
More fucked than you Nan's pretzel twisted
f*** Y***, God Fucking Damn It!!!

Definitely a Never-Nude

Never-nude
Lives adjacent to me
Am I just a prude?
But I really think he is a she

But, does he know the inner depths
...Inner depths of our souls?
Will (he) be there when we take our last breaths
And will he tell us if we have fulfilled our roles?

The grates of the PATCO look like a nice resting place
And today I saw the old me on the side of a corner store
Tell me does this give me a ticket to the inevitable vitality race?
Or will my soul, like that of Jim's, merely wash to shore

Preconceive

I feel the buzzards swarming
And this heat is getting to me
Clouds that swarm are an insignia of warning
And the crabs beckon to plea

Please save me from this facade
I don't know who to believe
Is everyone, in their own way, a fraud?
Perhaps nothing is what we perceive

How does one trust?
How does one believe?
Because, you, I think it's just lust
So, please garner your notions preconceived


 

Ghost of My Past

It feels so good to once again script my thoughts
Today I saw a ghost from times past
You caused my stomach to systematically condense into knots
And I fluttered to the back of the building, so you could escape a glimpse of me; and I then couldn't hear your lambaste

But as much pity as you would place on me
I have already placed upon myself... ten fold
So collectively let's poke fun at me and just feel a sense we call free
Because in this life you choose right, and I went left, all the while you may laugh;but I will always hold the pennant of bold

Despite my ne'er do well behavior there are still some innate things...
No one can ever take away from me
I, not you, rose from the ashes on a phoenix's wings
And while most would have fled, I faced reality, all the while sipping on my eloquently prepared tea!

Yes, I'm Pissed

I have just figured out the meaning of x
In the obsolete triangle
In all actuality its always been simple, not perplex
I'm not the talisman he dangles

Problems emerged before
And after me
So, get the facts straight, and stop this fucking war
Look deep into your self, on a bend and knee

Keep your comments close
Because no one in the human race will ever be self righteous
Think about your self's past long and slow
I don't think you want your actions/vitality to become meaningless and lifeless... Now do you?

Fucking Fabians

I saw an old acquaintance today
There is time between us, and before
Thus, my atrocities are far out weighed
I strap my snagle-tooth back to the inner remnants of the brain, that I've been looking for

She was in the air
Not being able to avoid
Coming off so submissive and fair
Hush, because little do you know of the harmony I have destroyed

Presenting a hint of pretension
... And propriety
Making the elephant in the room feel the tension
And consequently, exposing your predetermined membership to the Fabian society

Swiss Cheese and You

A careless tragedy
Lead me to you
Satiated by a vacantly pretty harmony
In which we both made it through

I smile...
And bashfully hide my stare
All the while utilizing my guile
You helped me out of the devil's snare

You fill my vacancy
With your beautifully saccharined soul
Given me a glimmer of hope, so graciously
...Making Swiss cheese feel oh so whole

Be Upon a Dream

Repugnance lies upon me
Give it a rest, they say to me
And what scares me, is to just be free
So, will I continue to run away?

Fear everything
And fear nothing
Perhaps, then, I will have a chance so enslaved, and beating
Or, just tell me your heart is healed, with the feeling so loving

I'm just as old as the dream
... So fiend upon me
And let me sail upon the stress so deep
Let's relax, chillax, and just be upon a (our) dream

Blend Mother, Blend

Get out of the shadows
... Lurk out of the grass
Fuck all of you who came to overshadow
Lack luster at best, and at last

Thus, ride around town
Placing your nose up in the air
And so, eradicate the frightening frown
I wish you came to act as simply as if you care

Torture my soul here and again
I know I will love you, here until the end
So just embrace you, and let me be your friend
Let's just make it, and merely blend

Fat Ass

The light of the day
Still shines upon us
I declare a traverse far, far away
Don't want to contribute to your perpetual stress

Hey you, fat ass in a dress
Why must you languish and stay?
Causing so much havoc and distress
With the feelings so tattered and astray

Buy me some great escape
Come down and encapsulate the moon
Mold me in order to reshape
Wishing for the end to come too soon

Thank You

Truth is difficult to come by
But, I must say thank you
And I know how you must comply
While all of the other folks look and eschew

Miss the friendship
Miss the sense of just being
Almost glimpsing at the remnants of a kinship
While everyone else seems to underestimate feelings that are fleeting

Thank you!
No one has ever done what you do
Thus, escort me to...
With you I have my ruby shoe

Cankle

This man seems to know me
...Douche canal
I want to ream you out, you see
Just to imitate the juxtaposition of those whom are banal

Propensity to be verbose, to the max
And thus cut a hole in my ankle
So send me a warning through the fax
Left bloated like an elephantiasis' cankle

Superficial
Superfluous like a goiter to the neck
Became a lamb of the sacrificial
So I retort, "What the heck"

Ghost Town

Now we must try and explain
The obstacles that reside in the way
I never meant to cause this strain or pain
....as it all unravels like a sweater's fray

Dig myself deeper
Lower, lower, down, and down
I must step outside to take a breath
Just to escape my head that's a ghost town

Muster up
Suck reality up
Pucker up
Never been prepared for this close up

Cover Me in Sloppy

Do I have jowls?
Am I a mechanical man?
Do you ponder and scowl?
Why do we all feel down

Just let me figure this life out
Stand there like a statuesque body
I merely want to shake and shout
Thus, just cover me in sloppy

There's a glass
Half full
We are all just atoms of mass
And what is left is nothing at its' period of lull

Rubber Boots

I'm out there in my rubber boots
Waiting for its' scaffolding to fall on me
So sick of being told, "how cute"
Thus, syringe me please

I see an awesome wave
As 48 hours terrorizes
In the fog of one's haze
Being blindly memorized

Caustically true
Feeling a tad bit blue
I never had an iota of a clue
Your pearls of wisdom and its' slew

Hammers

What does life hand you?
A bag of hammers
Up above is a sky so gray; not too blue
And your tone, oh so cacophonous, is in my ear as it clamors

Here I see the walls of yesterday
And the scars of years ago
Where the infection stays to fester
Under which I reside; the rock below

Hold me close
Eradicate the pillars of this erection
And I am myopic at most
All the while fearing your rejection

Toll

I finally drew today
I reluctantly put scar cream on my failures
Even though my "art" is in the scale of gray
I spend so much time in the mirror just uncovering my errors

Out emotions on a blank canvas
Wear inner struggle on your sleeve
Trembling with nerves qualified as anxious
Pine to elude my soul and just leave

But, I've discovered I am anchored to the ground below
Keeping me clasped tight in this mortal soul
One day, perhaps, I may learn to grow
...Before my past creeps in and takes its' toll

Those that Love

There is a melange of masked faces
Trouble in every corner
No longer in God's graces
And I started living this life like a foreigner

Downtrodden by the ideal of death
Becoming just another beggar at dusk
Wishing to make this one my last breath
In permanent danger like an elephant's tusk

I pined to gracefully leave
Instead I caused havoc and stayed
I failed to trust and believe
Yet, those that love came to my aid

This Poem is Terrible, Sorry

I swim all night

All the while morning comes to wake us

Shinning it's omnipotent beams of bright light

I toss to turn and fuss

Quietly, I watch you as you stir

And with my blemished face, I shyly close my eyes to hide

Just thinking that it is you I prefer

Pull me close so we may confide

A smile then resonates from my unkempt face

My stoic disposition dissipates

And, for once I feel like I'm in the right place

Since I've failed to eradicate you from my mind; I sit, wait and, anticipate

 

My Past

These twists of life
Have become so bitter sweet
Feeling like a bestial part of humanity living among its' wildlife
...Just like walking through the jungle of Camden's malignant streets

Trouble once hung upon me
When I was quickly running out of time
I would barter my vitality with a shrilling plea
Living a life at best, part-time

I really wanted to fade away
Go to sleep to a better world
Without harboring any longer delay
And thus, I would have been comfortable being an individual left piece by piece gnarled

One Day

I have been scathed by this world's crucifix
All the while dawn wakes me with pain
Yet, I still continue to take this erroneous life and attempt to fix
All the while experiencing epochs of ceaseless rain

I must hold on to the utopia; one day it will be dry
And where death fails to consume all things lovely
There must be, perhaps waiting for you and I, a sun and blue sky
So lets grasp the concept of owning a beautiful discovery

One day we will all experience the risen sun
Dripping with its' golden beams
Lets thwart pain and hurt so it may be done
And as peculiar as it may seem, this "one day" can't merely be a dream

Hypodermic Syringe

There's nothing to eat
And no where to go
I keep my head down, because I smell defeat
Yet, I must keep my head above so I do not sink below

So, may I dream upon a dream
And I place my bet upon you.... in order to gamble within this life's gambit
Tell me, have I garnered enough merits to redeem
Or must I take this omnipotent pain and use a blanket?

I do feel comfortable telling you everything
But, I do, sometimes, watch as you cringe
We slowly construct trust again, all the while building
Simply because I eradicated the old habit of a hypodermic syringe

High-life

I gaze at you....
As your embraced by that picot weave
I think of how much I love you; one of the scant few
And I render the two of use ideally placed together, like a dolmen sleeve

...A bit odd
...A tad nostalgic
Side by side, we are mediocre and flawed
And yet together we/it's magic

It's happening among turmoil's rubble
...The debris of a tragic life
And yet I am no longer delineated by trouble
So let's move forward and enjoy the cliche... high-life

Allergy

Allergy of the body
Obsession of the mind
What does this world employ or embody?
And how did I become so unrefined

Escape to get some more pain
I feel the cool rain spitting at my face
As it feeds me with its' chilling embrace
While denying every inch to be chained

Disintegrate with the tides of sand
Vehemently disappointed because the storm is coming
Thus, watch your back as it all ends
...And I have so been told what I wear on my sleeve is so unbecoming

Nebula

I must tremble to shake
Just thinking of the retired demon who once resided in my soul
Recollecting the only cure to my perpetual ache
I pined to feel so glad to go

I wish I could have found my old soul's retina
Because it's now in remission
As my sickness became a literal life nebula
Clearly, I performed a reality ridden demolition

Speak the words of the past
Altruistically, so your present may differ
So bloody sick and tired of being surpassed
As we all watched this once promising life almost wither

Half Way Town

I am midway to nowhere
And, yet, midway to everything
It has become plainly obvious, there has become definite need for prayer
In this half way town, that's escape is just too easy

I just find myself wanting to run
To leave the old me behind, and to find something new
And thus I count to one just to be done
Loving in a town built on being queue

Unfortunately, I have become a distant part of this crew
Among the bestial faces of this half way town
And each morning I seep into its' dew
Step beyond your echelon, and just come down

You!

I look in the mirror, and I don't know who I see
...Its a bony reflection of me
Staring back at who I use to be
Well, I will tell you this, I can never go back to that point of need

I wish I were a phoenix
To rise above and fly away
Although, at times, I feel like a matter of convenience
You do however charm me, despite what happens, each and every day

Despite the wish to wash away with the moon
While perpetually thinking of you
I attempt to wait for dusk in the midst of June
I cautiously look at you, to marinate my thoughts and brew
......................................................................Smiling thinking of just you

Love Me Please

Default....I listen to anxiety-ridden pseudo emo records
Because its' something unabolishingly familiar
 So how will you translate my prior addiction with a guitar chord?
Thus, tell me lately have you  looked in the mirror?

So I watch you as you back away
Leaving the streets with an iota of your taste
You then tell me how yellow I have become in the shade of gray
And thus, in my myopic life, how much did I contribute to waste?

Cure me with a touch
With this misdiagnosis of a disease
You are the one I pine for as such
And so I beg yo to love me please

Associate

So genius, tell me where I associate
Please tell,  am I the geek, the jock, or the freak?
Well, I now feel inured to disassociate
And so I say, the future looks bleak

To you, and to me
Gape at the veins that use to be
And ideally, do we understand what it is to be free?
Or is it the innocuous religion's plea

Take this timeline and redesign
Please get me out of this nostalgic life
I simply just feel so confined
And to this monotonous sutured life; I've become its' wife

Sure Bet

So the conjecture is that I am a sure bet
As you begin to gingerly gesture, the act of the sea gull, is clearly geared towards me
Like the banality of condensation, I so wish you could just forget
So please don't divulge anything to me on your knee

You , do, keep coming back for a reason
And as much as you cure, there's always someone more pertinent
Perhaps so you may let me be defeated
And when did you finally conceptualize the entire nation is rife with narcissism

Thus, feast upon my feelings
Love and hate me simultaneously
As you slowly kill everything
You still tend to joke around spontaneously

Magnet of Instability

Everyone betrays the truth
It lies within malcontent
And determines whether or not you'll become a sleuth
Even if you repent; the demons refuse to relent

So fold the lies inward
I think incorrectly perceived myself
So shall we all just start walking backwards?
Let's now place our feelings on the back shelf

Answer me this...who the hell cares for someone after 10 days?
Only the magnets of instability
And you must be in the haze of today
Lacking all of the essential facility of tranquility

Blurry Mind...Inspired

You are my societal beef and cheese
My world exists where relationships are absurd
You ask me to be here, just to please
And I am so fucking sick of living in your ghost world

You ask me to see a streak of blithe in everything
And yet you persecute me
Is it because of your catatonic way of feeling?
Or is it merely your innate creed; to flee

You perceive I have a blurry mind
And I enjoyed the times we had nothing to say
Unfortunately, as much as we bitch, we are inevitably entwined
As much as I pray to be alone, the thought of you just wont go away

Rat Race

I'm like a rat, just running for its' cheese
I am on the search everyday
Through a maelstrom of a wheel; in which is designed to tease
All the while never questioning the ideal of "the way"

So muneca, doll yourself real pretty
To circumlocutory revolve the world
We silently churn to reach the celestial city
Thus, lets take our tulle skirts and twirl

 Learn early kids
No one can be depended on
As a conglomerate universe places its'  macabre bids
I thus will marinate the idea that we are all forgone

Illness Bailout

There is a ghost, of sorts, that walks behind me
Breathing my air
One that waits on me with beckon knee
Even one that waivers; and can't be denounced by a prayer

It's to those who doubt
What we, intellects, define as an illness
Masses ignorantly blithe in flaut
So cut your own cacophony off by your shrillness

Merely just tell me your thoughts
Will I hide or will I shout?
....Regardless of its cost;
Lets just congeal, and bail out!

Normalcy

Normalcy exists
Within individuals who are receptive to the world
Typical is not for those who tend to dismiss
Or one's with perfect skin...typically left gnarled

We all tend to mask convenient truths
Where the general public believes all is valid honesty
And why can't life be simple like our youth?
Thus, we, essentially, have nothing in commonality

So, to the masses, I pronounce
Oh facade, facade, facade...please, beckon more
Just wait for the bestiality to pounce
And so normalcy...do I represent the United State's "store" or just it's whore?

Death to You Hipster

We were the uncanny humorous droids in high school
Rife with intellectual adventures
Although denoted as odd, we indulged in the laughter of those who drooled
Therefore, causing us to stagnate in a path of misadventures

 We over stepped boundaries, and made a plethora of mistakes
All the while adorned in vintage garb, and glasses too big for my tiny American face
Is this why we ended up as such fickle flakes?
And now, despite our intellect, we aren't able to take this history and erase

Although I fail to denote myself as a bloody hipster
The stereotypical world has already placed that definition on me
So I declare death upon your ideology of a main stream-hipster mister
And commence the definition , lets simply coincide and be free

Fear=Morning Light

Fear is what I feel in the morning light
Its' sharp glare magnifies my blemishes and flaws
And in this gambit of life, why can't someone just shove me stage right...NO limelight
So indulge me, what are the emotional effects of this earthly cause?

Now, I curl up into a ball
Spike my morning OJ, so the light of day will not penetrate so bright
Waiting in anticipation for the daily existence of banal
And to sleep away the pain is the sole reason I pine for the night

I have tried to hide
I tried to live among the falsely happy masses
But I fail to walk life's straight line; I tend to wander to the side
And in summation, I simply want to eradicate this emotional turmoil, alas...PLEASE

Eclipse

I've been wracking my brain
Just to make sure emotionally I am ok
Am I merely a chestnut mare you just can not tame?
Or do you hold onto me just for one of your rainy days?

Children beam when they see something as simple as the moon
While adults yearn for the darkness of the eclipse
Is age our inevitable doom?
All the while we wait for the vacuous abyss

I have done something so wrong
And to you, I have hurt you once again
Now I sit alone; where the days are too long
And none of my actions can be justified; let alone be defended

Thank You

You make me smile when I really do not want to
You welcome me with open arms, despite all of my flaws
You fail to look at me with a glance of eschew
And despite all my inherent malice, you hide your claws

You always believe I am painted as lovely as a picture
Although I know I am patina-ed on the inside
Despite everyone else's observation of me so obscure
You take me as I am, and simply forget to define

I thank you for all you have done
You place meaning back into this life
You observe me and yet fail to shun
And yet again I thank you for viewing me as a person despite all of my strife

Bad Habits

Fuck I have a gnawing precipice of bad habits
It's searing my every daily move
I wish I could take a knife; stab it, and thus eradicate it
But I have become comfortable wallowing in this depressionary love

So I choose to:

• Smoke
• Drink
• Omit imperial information
• Scar, ,mar, and maim

With cognition I make an effort to:

• Escape
• Self medicate
• Avoid
• And hibernate

Thus, encapsulated by my own self worth I:

• Isolate
• Avoid
• Desire perfection
• And unearth solace in others

And so I lay down my habits of malice
You either will run to help or walk away
Have I made you too callous?
So just take who I am and just stay

...Acceptance may be the key.................Or perhaps not?

Pink Sky

There's a pink sky above us
And a fiery pit below
Let me stay on point, so I may not digress
And let me be the person I was years ago

I keep my mouth closed and shut
Cruel feelings wash over you, because I have ditched you once again
I have learned honesty is like a knife that just cuts
 In this gambit of life, there's nothing to gain

Just isolate your sorrowful soul
So, just drown it with alcohol and a smile
I'm now being sucked in by a vacuous hole
Apparently, obsolete, I don't fit into your style

You Were Told

It's just the beatniks' feet
...Living a life so incomplete
Abstaining from things, that I just can not meet
Thus, wayward wander; with your ships and it's fleet

Question me this answer
Tell me where you wander
You think I my omnipotence is devout
So take my head, blunder and shake it until you ponder

I am dully listening to tunes of the past
Your memory is now so old
Regardless of your drug induced fast
My mother negatively engaged, warned, and told

Let it Die

I let the cold rain hit my face
And my sloppy face has no feeling
Piled layer upon layer; now I am just an edifice
So what will my life be with all of these dealings?

The cold tundra encapsulated who I use to be
So beware of the summer sun, because it will all one day disappear
Shame on you, and shame on me
Its everything that one must fear

Outline my eyes in black
So it is to hide
You're not privy to all of the facts
So just smile and let it die

Cruel

Destruction
Resigns its' self to your back door
I have become devastated by my own posh isolation
So break me down, before I hit the door

I sneeze and yet don't feel better
All the while a stained glass window illuminates my face
I've been in the clutches of the devil.... as his debtor
Thus, I have learned evil is omnipotent; so hand me some mace

Cover my scars with a Bohemian bracelet
...You are just a fool
And thus, life throws me to the pavement
You became such a delinquent, the populi fails to recognize how well you did in school
 ..................................Oh how life is so cruel

Back Burner

I have become uncomfortable in this mess
Even though I miss you to confide
Listen to me as I must confess...
I must walk alone, and keep in stride

You have been there for me at my worst
Held me up, when I spiraled down
But for me, this atypical relationship is a first
And it has become difficult to grin and bear it as others frown

I've kept you on the back burner for some time
And I must during this epoch of my life
Believe me, I am just like a dozen dimes
Searching for one's self in a lifetime of agony and strife

Sappy, Sorrowful, and True

Blood soaked shirt
Remnants of the past tense
Perhaps in time it will be denoted as fine art
So tell me, am I better in the present?

Turn your world around
With you by my side
I apologize that I left you down to drown
So let us become allied

Feathers grow upon us
So we may take flight
And although I am a mess, please just say yes
Thus, my mantra to you is...Don't loose sight; just hang on tight

Miss Loving

Hold me in your clutches
Hold me in your grasp
I have pined so long for your soft touches
So, keep me closed tight, like a string of pearls to their clasp

Yes, I have marks of misery
That are unfortunately embedded upon me
My apologies to you, that I am such a mystery
And I left you on beckoned knee

Know I look at myself as if I have a greasy face
All the while listening to sullen songs of nothing
I'm sorry you think I captured you with intentions of debase
But, inevitably, it's you I miss loving

Ghetto and Folk

There is something uncanny between the juxtaposition of the ghetto and the soundtrack of folk
All I have done is attempt to run away
...To revolt and to revoke
And between us, it was I who betrayed

I tend to dwell from the bottom of the vile
All powder pigeon-ed in black
I ask you a question, and you sit and ponder about how I apparently beguiled
And so you took the reigns and pulled back

I think all is better with the lights out
I left my soul in the ice box
Unfortunately, I am prepped for this world's inevitable drought
Thus, as I move forward, please illuminate me, and perhaps give me some props
 

Morose Dog

A morose dog sits down by my side
We are both just wishing to die
And like a fishing net I cast upon this great divide
Like the canine, I want to eradicate my earthly belongings, and just be welcomed by the sky

Trust and believe I have slept in defeat
And my sorrow is relentless like rain
Just toss me in the back seat
Take my core and slain

Write it up
And just leave the knife
Hand me that instrument as if it were my death cup
And fuck, I didn't choose to be here; so why can't I take my own life?

Plain Jane

I was beautiful when your song begun
Now you are all through
Delineated and raped by a con man
I watch you drive away with a sullen face in your review

I'm now surrounded by a plethora of people
And yet still alone
You have always viewed me like a scar; weak and feeble
And for that I cringe at our simultaneous moans

The idea of death has devoured my loveliness
And I have become passe like old rain
So as I digress....
Much in due part to my lack of sanity; go find yourself a lovely plain Jane without any baggage or pain

Drown

Drown out my mind
Pick my brain with a fork
Become a clam digger; see what you may find
Please take my emotion and thwart

A litany of good food
Eradicates the emotional feelings of you
Thus, shake your head because you just don't have a clue
And I hate the fact that you still make me feel blue

I wanted you out of my life
And yet I still miss you
Let me muster up some might
And let me hear you cry too

Crooked Streets

Walk down the crooked streets
I pensively feel like a cut so deep would alleviate it all
I'm utterly sick of all my defeats
I just want to sit on this stoop and ball

I have a kaleidoscope of issues
Tenderly destroying all in my path
So let me just hand me some tissues
And just give me the shaft

Kill me gently with your warm hands
Veins exposed to the breaking point
I listened to all of your demands
And now left askew with a disjoint

I feel withered to the core
Use my body and soul, like I'm not here
Tell me what this life is for
I now simply pine to just disappear

Stone Cold Horses

Wake me in the coolness of  the night
To the utter disappointment of my inevitability
The heinous gesture left you loose like a free floating kite
Look, we were two stone cold horses exposed by the cracks of our fragility

I hurt you before you decimated me
Yet I feel as though my malignancy will feed
Some would say I float like a butterfly, but underneath you know....I sting like a bee
Understand, my intention was not to make you bleed

I hear your howls from across the river
But I am not the one you want
I just made you perpetually shiver
Look on the good side, I'm no longer around to make you daunt

Fuck me royally with Man-Capris

Fishermen wear shorts
And men wear pants
I have never been one that flirts
But I melted at our first glance

It is a sin however, that no man shall ever wear capris
But damn, I can, and honestly  my calves look kickass in them
You have demolished my sense of worth like a disease
While all you do is condemn

Why do I still care
Fucking loyalty
I suppose life isn't fair
And I accept the fact that your perpetually screw me royally

Culprit

The culprit is life
And yes, I fought off a gun and won
Living life with chaos and strife
I just want it all to be done

I can not fix this world
Because this world never fixed me
How can anyone with an intellect believe life has an iota of allure
So, I cry to the heavens, "What's the fucking key?"

Had to drive through the ghetto to do well
Had to reach the cliffs of inevitable demise to be resuscitated
Despite my journey's core, my soul still feels like a shell
So, let's quell our anger and commiserate

Let me be!!!!
Don't write tunes about me as a sullen girl
Understand, I already know me
And you can't change me by adding a beat, a twirl, or a swirl