Today

I don't think I will ever see your face again
The last goodbye you uttered is your final word to me
Let us be honest, this is the end
So, I will acquiesce...and just let you be

But I ask you kindly, please
During this epoch, don't come knocking at my door
I am preparing to take these emotions, the one's for you, and freeze
Take this relationship, tuck it up tightly, while vanquishing it to the bottom drawer

Never to be seen again
United by one moon, yet we are billions of stars away
As a result, my fragile heart has become more confined and enchained
Today is/was the last time we will speak, and that day was today

Wounded

Accompanied by a wounded heart
And a wounded soul
Today I have broached a new start
Yet the past has taken its toll

Bottomless treasure trove
Or an empty beauty
A life packed up and unable to use the stove
I must learn to discard the high-brow, and displace the connotation of moody

Together we are out of tune
Heathered by gravity
No longer will there be you and me
I'll get better; eradicate all of my depravity.....How about you?

Injected

At times, I wish I could scratch away my malignancy
And now your number is disconnected
As far as I run, I can not escape delinquency
Consequently, I detest the veins I injected

Curl up into a ball and hide
Escape from this evolutionary demise
Good and evil, in my life, have surely collided
All you see and hear are my gut wrenching cries

Cold like an Eastern European languish
And, surely, I prefer isolation
Truly, I want to eradicate this mental anguish
And, I pine to see divinity within reincarnation

Tell your family I say hello
I know I have crossed the line and gone below
They recommend I hang in tightly, and go with the flow
Subsequently, will I thwart or grow?

Aqua Socks

Who the fuck gets aqua socks
Riddled by a luminous mess
So, grab a hold and take stock
How could I ever achieve less?

You really don't want to know where I go
I tend to venture into the left corner of my mind
Sure, as much as I try, I'm not your average Joe
Nor am I part of the archetypal design

Eradicate this red feeling
Stop my self inflicted hostility
I believe it is now time for me to start healing
I must attempt to make this cold world softer, and create, for myself, some viability

Make Things Right

Joy, apparently is in the air
And yet I still feel imprisoned by these walls
Thus, I've learned life isn't fair
I think people like to watch me as I fall

I now feel odd in your surroundings
And regardless of Christmas, you still feel distant
All the while the zealots in my head are perpetually pounding
I must conclude...I'm fed up with your act of resistance

You trick me into thinking I am beautiful, even though I am not
Despite, I enjoy holding you so tight
My past waivers, and to both of us it takes a piece of us and rots
I wish I could just hold you, and make things right

The wind slowly creeps up, and sends shivers down my back
All in the world is false
I attempt to adorn a parka, but the world seems black
All the while visibility denotes my faults

Guilt beckons me as you laugh
So, cough up validity of the day
Feel the golden wrath
And I wish I wore death upon me, so I couldn't see gray

Are you a kind soldier or a beast?
Your silver juxtaposes me nicely
I know I have not established myself as deceased
Thus, just cut me off inevitably so concisely

Dart

Must I lock the door
And keep you far away
I feel as though I have become a chore
And know, everyone is alone I must convey

Stop trying to make me laugh
I'm just a fraction of a whole
Thus, please don't speak on my behalf
I have become an individual you can not seem to control

It suffers me to cherish you
....That is the truth
Stop using your spectacles to view
And I know how I am so uncouth

I tend to have cold hands
And, too, perhaps a cold heart
I watch you take a position of erect; as you stand
And as the thunder clamors, I watch you as you dart

Weight of Smoke

The cloud cover encapsulates me
As I pensively attempt to walk away
As usual, I will inevitably pack my bags and flea
Subsequently, back on stage as your display

Know, eventually, I will slip back into myself
And tell me...am I worth the weight in smoke?
Doesn't isolation reach every one's oneself?
Feeling imprisoned on your yoke

My veins grew like weeds
Swelling ensued
No one knew I was in need of prayer beads
Clearly, as a result of my past, I detest how I am viewed

Rootless

Would problems be solved with a punch in the face?
Or would I be happier with an incurable disease?
Come on, nullify my place in space
I've determined, my inevitable ending is to displease

I have become a tree without roots
Too timid to roam the streets; because I have always been eschewed
My labor doesn't seem to bear much fruit
Thus, I tend to hide beneath the covers and seclude

I own the fact I have hidden cracks invisible
So stop your laughing
I pine to fade into black, and yet be adorable
So please stop your bullshit and acting....Just for me, please

Small

The stars come out
And beckon me as they call
The leaves congregate by my door like a Christian devout
And I feel scant and small

Bang my fist against the wall
Come inside and make me fine
In this life I strive to be less banal
Thus go ahead and drink some more wine

I want to tear my skin into gaping holes
God only knows, I have tried to be a good girl
And guilt has become my vitality's control
Despite what you may think; I man am an oyster without a pearl

27

I never thought I would live past twenty seven
A place rife with strife and incompetence
Neither did I think I would make it to heaven
And I know you believe I'm incompetent

I use to be vital and beautiful
Now I'm just a composite of dirt
Denoted by my struggle
Acknowledge the police and avert

For I have become a stranger within this prison
Kept between faith and reality
Stuck in an omnipotent addiction
And now we have no commonality

I wish I was deaf
And my candles burn at both ends
You're just indifferent
So what does society tend?

Fuck your old friends
Go to Canada and join a gang
I'm just to you a dead end
And I heard you in the distance as you're drum clangs

The Night

Roll me over a new life
Though the night is for sleep and dreams
I can not seem to get past this strife
And everything is not as it seems

Exhausted by auctions of lies
Where has my box of love gone?
Please don't choose me to chastise
Or call on me to fawn

Will you recognize me in hell?
Your inconsistency is not to care
Don't be frightened; I know how to wrap an object impaled
 So just show me underneath how you tear; and I will be there

Defenestrate

I have an affinity for orange juice and cheese
I have all of this medication that will not ease
All you do is tease
So take my heart strings and tweeze

I miss my family
I feel as though I no longer belong
You grin and bear me angrily
I know I have done so much wrong

Can't seem to sleep
I wish upon a star you were here
Now all I seem to do is weep
While omnipotently consumed by fear

Take me away from this hell
Escape via defenestration
I just want to be well and have these feelings quell
And yet you want to renew me like a fenestration

Hurting Heart

My heart hurts
You were here and yet left
I am alone on a desert
And I feel as though you've performed a theft

Shove me to the abaft of your litany of events
Steal my kisses away
You enter in and out of my life through segments
All the while I pine for you each day

Let the cold rain cleanse my soul
I will always provide the shoulder you cry upon
For you, I want to be complete and whole
So lets make this work, come on

I have subsequently been signing the blues
And just hearing your voice makes me cry
Now, my inner depths of my soul have been left bruised
However, I just can't release my grasp, and say goodbye

Leave Me

I can not seem to render the face I once knew
Draw, trace, and contemplate...yet nothing comes from it
Whatever is within my reach, must be within my view
Thus, just be honest and admit it

And yet you continuously mess with my heart
Please stop these feelings
Nonetheless, without you I must restart
Your love will never be able to reach my high ceilings!

Place you in front of the mirror
Tell me, do you honestly like what you see?
It creates tension further away from me, not nearer
So just say you will leave me...please

S. Parker I Do Love You

Drama
Fucking ridiculous
Its a bloody problem
Your bullshit is frivolous

What commitment
Try to alleviate your pain
I just want you to listen
Please don't tap into that vein

Tidbits of truth
Call yourself out on things
I know you pine for youth
What will this life for you bring?

Hospital Socks!!!! HA

Adorning hospital socks
Remnants of my past
And now my heart locks
I am like a fishing line you may easily cast

Experiencing omnipotent pain
It's eating me alive
Thus, it will be difficult for me to abstain
I have no choice...must trust in the future, and subsequently thrive

With or without you...
I have always been in a state of survival
Now, pondering the epoch of my debut
And I do not want to get down with life's inevitable spiral

Vice

My past has bruised me
Like an old freckled banana on it's way to the trash
I pine for my future...to be free
And I ask you to alleviate my malice to ash

Unearth my mouthly stitches
Please allow me to be an individual, and speak my mind
Perhaps, one day, I may alleviate myself from rags to emotional riches
Now, I am left alone...and yet still entwined

Nothing is merely black and white
And yet simplicity and understanding would be so nice
I wish you could crawl into the inner depths of my soul and discover my plight
But, I knew inevitably, piece by piece, you would be tenable to my vice
....................................So sorry

Don't Read

You're like a poorly concocted mixed drink
Sweet to the taste, and yet rough on the belly
All you do is contemplate and think
And now you have left me feeling dirty

I can't even write I am so upset
But Ben and Jerry have always been there to heal my heart
Am I just a cavernous threat?
Or perhaps I know too much, and simply too smart

Fuck no; these are my coping instincts
I wish I was someone else for you
Obviously, now you must be absent
And I pine for the day we can just get through

Delinquent me
Banish my soul
For you, as much as I love, I just want to flee
You know I am too fucked up for you, and thus you can't console

Red Sky

The red sky
Harbors some cool cool rain
Although I can not seem to cry
I gape at the blood that perpetually flows through each vein

You give me the look of death
With your cold eyes
I ache with every breath
And again I wont be able to rise

I have witnessed malignancy
Thwarted by poor choices
Thus, I pray to the trinity
Just pleading to a higher being to hear a shred of my voice

Broken

Broken...
Thrown into a state of disarray or confusion
And I ask you politely; don't walk all over me because I am soft spoken
And please don't laugh at my comfort ability in seclusion

I tend to be stoic and isolated
I dream of the day I can be more like you
The root of your ambivalence is from being frustrated
But please try not to make me so blue

I have been absent for many moons
Simply stifled by bad news
So lets dissuade our differences and listen to some good tunes
And just let me be your clown to amuse

Drums

The shades slowly hum
And my hands become alive
I'm haunted by your drums
And its our relationship I want to strive

Pen to paper
I really just want you here
So stop being a faker
So find me the common cure

So sniffle this shit up
Stop focusing on the bad
Take the depravity I have to scrub
And legitimately I am sick of being sad

Legitimately stop being so morose
You know I am tormented by my past
So take this door and close
And please know that you shouldn't mess with me, because this world is vast

Goodbye

I wish I could be mesmerising just to you
I try to sing like a good canary
But all that is good in my world falls through
And I get that all of this may be too scary

I feel like I am wasting your time
So I must retract
Because its you that's at your prime
And as you have mention, I merely have a heart of black

So today I attest
I will step away
You're free from my shackles; free to move on with your worldly quest
And hey, don't worry about me, perhaps I will adapt to my shade of grey

Fight

Escapism
Is to write
Living in my own prison
Is an attempt to fight

But brawl with whom?
An outsider or myself?
I want to bloom and fight the inevitable tomb
I want to roll up my sleeves and fight to come to yourself

And I know you fight to avert
And you're caught between my depravity and gentleness
But, I promise to leave you unhurt
Please don't be caught in the perceptions of other's nebulous

Dappled Dreams

It's simple
I miss you
And as you know, my disease has rendered me crippled
As the question lingers in your head, I am who?

You have become cold
Brought on by the winter's chill
I know you have experienced the epoch in which the Devil took a hold
And yet, now after released from evil, you continue to wish ill will

You now merely exist in my dappled dreams
And I am haunted by your delight and goodness
What exists on the outside isn't all it seems
I just wish I could live amongst your world of righteousness

Roman Ruins

Tell me how much of this world is mine to keep?
My fate has become what I mostly fear
Please don't give me too much, I tend to get overwhelmed and weep
As I contemplate year after year, I increase my tears

How do I solve this?
As my life now lives amongst Roman ruins
I am attempting to not jump through this world's omnipotent abyss
And yet, how can I prevent these thoughts, especially after all of my doings

I feel as though I live life in factions
Emotions and actions of good, bad, and indifferent
Thus, I must stand up and take action
But does anyone truly care?  Or have an interest?

Perpetual Rain

There's a scratch at my door
And I find myself clutching to life during the afternoon; it truly is the time it hurts the most
I am not like a silk teddy you can discard to the Bordeaux's drawer
And you know more than I, my demeanor tends to be a bit morose

Tell me, do you truly care?
Or am I just an edifice of sexuality?
You traipse around me because of my blackened heart; you think you must beware
Clearly my tenderness has become your reality

Please tell me what your understanding of what life is for
Is it just to be utterly debilitated by inner pain?
It's life gnawing ache I can't simply ignore
I dream of the sunshine upon me... I am sick of the perpetual rain

Collapse

There has been a collapse of effervescent youth
Truthfully, it no longer exists here
This is the reality of my truth
And because of my choices i have collapsed upon a lower tier

Tragically I must live with this malignancy
That has collapsed my dusty heart
And the soundtrack of my life is played by a depressed sympathy
All I want to do is take this all and avert

How many individuals have collapsed between homelessness and intelligence
Mistakes that have marred an angel's name
And now I sit stoically like an edifice
Simply rife with blame and shame

Collapse, open my hands, insert my face, and begin to cry
I wish there had been an angel installed upon my shoulder
I pray one day I can accept myself with a relieving sigh
I pine for the day that my past is simply over

Tremble and Shake

I tremble and shake
Especially for what my past has done
Now I must face my fate
But understand I can't deal with an iota more of communal shun

I tremble and shake as I sit
Deliberating Manic Mondays fate
Swallow my discrepant past, like a flame it enters my vacant belly's pit
Will I ever get out of this mess, or is it simply too late?

I tremble and shake about my fate
Understand I was then extremely sick
I now attempt to walk on a path of straight
Thus I plead to the heavens not to blow out my flame; to leave me without light...just the candle's wick

Gin

You linger on like a breath full of smoke from a half lit cigarette
And I have realized you don't do anything for me at all
I want to kick you like heroin's cold sweats
And sure., I must not walk before I crawl

Dry the rain up that casts an evil spell
I feel you like a ghoul upon my pale skin
And just because I have met the Devil...does this mean I am going to hell?
Perhaps all of the pain would subside if I just took a swig of gin

Why can't my questions be answered
You're no longer the individual I use to know
You have devastated me like a cancer
And no longer am I the girl you once terrorized and threw

Pale Eyes of Blue

I have to buck up, like a tyrant, a maid in a one man show
I pass the river we once visited and think of you
I'm now just look pallid, I've lost my glow
All the while, the gnarled trees encapsulate me; defame me as they eschew

I place a mirror in front of me and just weep
I am not the same person I use to be
As much as I have tried, I'm not the same prized possession you may keep
So grab your army, and take your fleet

Wash me away, and eradicate my name
I know all I have done is brought upon you shame
Oh my, what have I done... You cry to the Heavens while in a volume of exclaim
While I cause your heart to injuriously inflame

Burst like the brilliant stars upon the blanket of darkness the sky creates
Nightly gazes upon the moon, and I wonder if your looking too
Translate my inevitable fate....As I wait
While I feel so sad gazing upon your pale eyes of blue

My Facade

A facade; something I use to hide myself from you
I dangle my bangs in my eyes, thinking you will thus lack any recollection of me
But now older, and perhaps a tad wiser; I have become self aware enough to comprehend I am truly translucent...see through
You want me to expose my face, but understand it's a comfort thing...Thus, lets agree to disagree

Why do I pine for metaphoric shade?
Attention seeking behavior makes me regurgitate
Is it merely because I am just afraid?
Perhaps I can slowly adapt to the idea of exposure; and just percolate

I don't know of another soul who pines to be a wall flower
I ask you to look at me, but please don't speak
I feel as though I am 3 feet tall; you tower as I cower
Perhaps, one of the many underlying factors is, simply I fear your personal critique

Burn

Everything I know I set fire to
The ashes of my mess have become remnants of my pain
The memory of you burns right through me; and I know you will use that to misconstrue
Thus, I tend to smoke away anything that appears sane

My anxiety exists below the skin
And all I want is to burn the anxiety away
Thus, to sear my skin would relinquish all of this pain away...much to your chagrin
Nevertheless, a pattern in my life exists: all I love eventually burns away, I hate to say

So collect the ashes of my ruined life
And where I believed our relationship was safe; I was wrong...it just burned
Therefore, I let my cigarette merely burn away, and I contemplate all of life's strife
All the while, my love for you continues to burn; and although your concerned....I don't think you'll ever return

The Girl you Once Knew

I open the door and a gust of wind ambushes my face
I want to know, do I stay or go?
I see your weeping eyes filled with disgrace
And I ponder if you take me and then outgrow

Just the thought of you made me secretly smile
And I have come to accept and understand why you've attempted to disappear from me
I want to prove to you I may be scathed, but I am worthwhile
And I plead to you; do not judge me because I have emotions like the wayward sea

At times I feel as though your not honest
You walk on egg shells to prevent hurt
You have this preconceived notion that my life is full of darkness
Yet, the truth is I'm still the girl you once knew....So I ask that you don't avert

I Hate my Fragility

I feel the warm blanket of comfort drape upon me
Despite being emotionally stunted; I know I pine for you
I want to put my head on your shoulder and nestle
Can't you put down the magnify glass; and perhaps see this thing through?

I know I terrorize your dreams with my frail gestures
I have difficulties touching you because your too close
But know there are some elements of my soul that consist of some good textures
And now I divulged too much; I have taken my heart and exposed

I detest the fact that you find me intensely fragile
All the while you play with my heart's door; at times I find it wide open, and then it abruptly is closed
Unfortunately, my baggage is cumbersome, and not the least bit agile
But, despite all the odds its you I want to undisclosed

Bedouin

The Bedouin understand the concept of life
....To travel from various place to place
Failing to be entangled in monotonous strife
Thus, no familiar faces must they embrace

You could pack up and leave a bad dream
....This seems idylic to me
No longer having to live to merely battle life's balance beam
Just to be free, wander and sightsee

Your twenties are just an aperitif of this destructive life
A simple because I have studied an oeuvre of artists, just makes me pale in comparison
At times I picture myself in the Africa mingling amongst the dubious wildlife
So world... hear me!!!!! There's no need to be arrogant

Thus, the point, I am a suffering soul
Yet, facing some upward movement
Next item on the bucket list; make a metaphoric field goal
So Hey their popule!!!.....I am simply human., not useless!

Protestant Thighs

I cannot tell if you hate the fact that I am not slick
Or whether or not you like my Protestant thighs
Intrinsically, I believe I am the one you would pick
I want you to be there for me as I alter this demise

Heal my wounded heart
Will I ever help you get a brand new start?
Or you choose, to tear us apart
So prep yourself for a kick start

So what I am not immune to..... imperfection
I no longer detest my being, I suppose its norm
Nevertheless, I hope we do not loose affection
What else can I do for you, reforrm?

Hear there's a palindrome as a cacophonous voice
It's a pension for retribution
Nevertheless, you have an integral choice
And now I plead, to reatribute and not provide dilution

Convert

Forget who I once was
Catastrophic news hits the door
I want to be elsewhere, perhaps just over there
Question....Am I just done for?

Dry me out
Pick me up, mend the pieces
Have I always hated my life throughout?
And will I ever learn to take pain and release?

Burn a Catholic candle to help me heal
I am a perpetual mover; so I can never be hurt
Can't help the solitude I feel
I wish I could grasp this life by the balls, and convert

Zealot

So I have no clue how my knuckles have become black and blue
But all the external pain fails to the gnawing aching inside
I've always known you would leave me like the morning's dew
And now I have waisted too many tears on you because it was you I confide

Life is typically known for handing you a shitty hand of cards
Thus, it is your job to primp and prime it to your standards
Now its my soul that lays dormant and is guarded
Because all of reality is backwards

Trust me, it's difficult to battle this zealot in my head
But try not to bring me further down then I already am
I took my life in my hands and merely shred
So please, hold your cynical tongues and cease your condemning

Smoke Reasons Away

I sit and smoke the reasons why
Inhale all the demons
And I exhale all of the gray
I feel though I have taken a beat, and left beaten

So run away, I'm not the one you want
I cry out for you; but your not there
I acted with you, so nonchalant
Now left naked to the bone

So will you kiss my my life away again
And I will never fly away with you
Know I mean nothing because  I choose to maim
I suppose I 'm hard to swallow, and thus you must chew

It's All But a Suggestion

So tell me what's the time
Is it just an excuse to move on?
Does it merely mean you simply love me part of the time
Or will you steal what my worth is in silver and pawn it?

Tell me is there something copacetic with me?
Or did you just want to fix my ruins?
I feel like you should relinquish me; you'll be free
I know you pine for something concrete and proven

Drink at home with the TV on
I now have nothing to talk about
And I use to watch you till I feel asleep at dawn
Now I'm left from you apart

Please Don't Judge Me...Remember What Jesus Told You, HaHa...Truth Hurts

Perhaps you do not comprehend success is rife through my blood
My name is not Jamison to be merely cute or funny
Sure, I have led a scintilla of my adult life in the mud
But , despite all malignancies, the earth reasons good...and expresses it while its sunny

Don't ponder whether I will succeed
No doubt I can, I will, and I will always be fabulous
Despite my flaws, I have no other choice than to exceed
We all have set backs; the difference is I fail to be fatuous (its cool if you have to look that word up; I don't judge)

So make up your confused mind; you either love me or despise me
Despite my lulls; I now am the same Jamie you have always known
I'm exhausted by having to explain myself and plea
So, I give you permission to merely sit back, watch what I take and own, and how I will continue to grow


........PS----This is for all of the judgmental bastards out there

Venture Back

You're swayed by someone else who has suffered
And sure I have been a fool, but it truly isn't as terrible as it seems
So now I find myself in a state that suffers
And because I care too much; you will perpetually be in my dreams

I feel my soul has been ripped open
I understand my past has been catastrophic, nonetheless I thought you would be there
Now I'm left a wreck with emotion
Something I never wanted to expose again; I promised myself no other individual would share

Unfortunately, you crept into my heart
Left broken, busted, and frightful
Now, for sometime or forever we will be apart
So tell me, will you venture back to me, or just be like the rest....be harsh and spiteful?

Isolation

I feel alone in this aftermath of the disease
Caught up in your soothing web of love
I feel as though you've take all of this love and seize
I want to you to get above

Permanency no?
You need to break away from me
Can we together and grow?
I just want you to get on my knees and pray

I suppose I'm just afraid of isolation
Because that's where I've been
As are relation is it a dilation
Just tell me when i can get a win

Destructive People

Are we all self destructive people?
Some choose to hide; others show it on the outside
As humans will we ever be beloved?
Or will depravity come regardless of how much we've tried

I think I have forgotten to love myself
And I wish I could just hide under the sheets
And scantly I have put all of my dreams on the shelf
And relinquish my faith to the streets

Peel away the layers of the onion
See what you may find
Its hard with this eminent disease to function
And I suppose I'm here and must face the daily grind

Burn

I still feel the need to burn
Cut, scar, and mar
I understand this causes you great concern
So question, why don't you leave me astray

Ready.... GO!
I suck at all of life
I think you detest me because I feel so much woe
Trust and believe; I don't think I will ever make a stable wife

I have a tendency to dress all in gray
Please rectify my sullen life
And with you I want to grasp and sway
Please I ask of you, just appreciate me despite all of my inner and outward strife

Clank of my Heels

When you come around....
I know longer feel down
But, do you cringe when my heels make a sound?
And I owe you not to give my quintessential frown

I suppose somewhere I have forgotten to love myself
And my depression let me hear nonsense
Perhaps, I must take pride in oneself
But tell me do I lead you on a chase of suspense?

I call you on the phone, and yet no answer
Fuck you, and your drunkenness too
And sure I have battled bloody cancer
So go find yourself a pew, and screw

I think this is about as angry as I can get
And despite that I feel relatively pleasant
....So now after these words, I suppose you just want to jet
And just implore me that I am on your feudal system as you peasant

Creep into My Door

You have crept into my door
And you have watched me drift further away
I know you think I am stunted and won't go far
But for you I can't betray

I think I did walk with the devil
And then we ventured downtown
You unearthed me as I was a tad disheveled
I just want to lay down with you, and yet not let me down

So, Chester, I say I am peaceful
So take my load for free
I can no longer emulate evil
And thus I must say, fuck you and your decree

So I beg, speak the truth
And promise not
I do pine for who I was at my youth
Thus, smile at my decree; do not be distraught

Unearthed

So I've unearthed my heart to you
And now I have some moldy cheese in my bag
Do you just look at me askew?
Or will you surrender to my black flag?

You bring a smile to my Slavic face
And yet all I do for you is perpetually harm
Tell me if you just want to take my name and erase
I just want you to be you, and disarm

I'm sorry I'm no longer the girl you once knew
Better now or worse, I'm not too sure
But I do want to keep you within a window pane's view
I see your eyes burn into me; which leads me to believe your unsure 

So I see the moon set and rise
....On the outer limits of the world
Please don't tell me you'll be my demise
I feel like a tree left gnarled

Am I a gust of once once was?
Tune into the radio because shit's going down
Tell me I've escaped from hell's jaws
And do you hate me because my eyes are brown?


Did you exchange
What you've meant to me
Tell me I'm within your reach or range
Unchain me and let me be free

Zeppelin

Hey you, the storm has come and gone
It did leave debris on my porch
Like a worm, you have drawn me out
I will now wait for the sun to rise again and scorch

You will detest all of my wounds
And disapprove of me just being
A dusty library creates what I defend
So tell me, with your intellect what do you recommend?

I ask you not to break my bleeding heart
Although, I know yours is inured
Deliver me and wane me from a color chart
Take a deep breath, go undersea, and find me  a cure

I've got nails the color of orange
Sublime in a tangerine dream of Zeppelin
I do believe you think I'm foreign
You and you alone give me some adrenaline

My Room

In my room
I sit and contemplate
I cease to bloom
I'm isolated by the populous that congregates

In my room
All I see is black and white
Is it my eternal tomb?
If only you knew

How I detest this bloody room
It encapsulates my soul
It's the perpetual enforcement of doom
Oh how I strive to be whole

Scars

I hate my scars
So, now I intend to run until I drop
Fuck, I wish I could just step foot into a bar
Where I would then swoon to be your prop

But, do you really want me?
I feel like a used teather ball
I encourage isolation, so I may just exist and be
Perhaps I have now hit the so called "wall"

Tell me, do you think I'm used goods?
Reminded by a child, or are you more focused on the scars and marred?
So what do you require of me in the woods
But know beneath the anguish and pain I still see the light of the moon and stars

Naysayers

Surrounded by angels without wings
Praying on the mystical power of a sage
I've been in the clutches of the devil's puppet strings
....Just praying to be off this stage

I run away to sooth
And I cut to get through the pain
I pine for the time when I was curable in my youth
And my future was wide open; there wasn't anything I couldn't attain

An obstacle course flooded my life
Left me depressed, a mess, and complex
So I choose to relinquish the beast upon my skin with a knife
I just couldn't see past myself to understand the effects

Let the dead moon rise again
This life of mine, indeed, is chilling and raw
With the convoluted complexities I ask for an amen
.....And yet to my bloody naysayers, I dare you to say aha

Truth

I wish I could make it rain
Wash your tears away and alleviate your pain
I once had an affinity for my vein
But, thankfully, that habit has waned

My family struggles with my existence
Ironically, so do I
Where I once dreamt of acceptance
I now ask the question why

I can't tell if you care, or are you just influenced
Do you just feel bad because of our understanding of youth?
I do pine for you to be my constituent
But know underneath it all I am good; it's the truth

Introduction

There's something so beautiful in the idea of an introduction
A passe remembrance of good qualities
A mere smile gives you a beauteous deduction
But I dare you to take your best hypothesis

Dig beneath the thorns of shit
You'll find my bejeweled crown patina ed
Like a goblin without a spirit
Leave the rex and bring the reginae

I bruise without knowing
So....Do I disdain life that much?
I want my self confidence to be forever giving
But I don't know if my goodness will ever be such

Too Much

I think I am too much for you
A melange of problems I just can't seem to escape
What will I reap as I sough?
But I don't think we could leave this world without a scrape

The smell of a cigarettes lingers on my fingers
And I have this overwhelming feeling you want me to go
Perhaps I can garner my ineptitude by me triggers
And please tell me, have I caused you too much woe?

I'm sorry I am broken and scarred
Searching for a better epoch in time
Just let me know am I just someone you will discard?
Like a shoe rife with grime

Understand I have a disorderly plight
Discombobulation riddles my head
Are all of my words merely trite?
Or am I just putting words in your mouth that you've never said

I Care Too Much

Sometimes I feel trapped in lonely isolation
Driving just to nullify the pain
I just pine for you to give my soul some hydration
I tend to care too much, and I've let you turn my mind to stain

Baby Boy I'm here
Lonely, lonely that I was
But answer me, have I caused too much for you to endear?
I apologize for being as besmirched as black tea

I want, for all, to be healthy
Confronted by warmth, not cold or wind
And with you I can't feel empty
Just let me know when your feelings want to rescind

Your Wonderful Just as Yourself

Do you realize...
You spin me around
Have I demonized?
And did I cause you wounds?

Although I care so much about you
Is it time for selfish measures?
You're amazing how you've come through
And its you I treasure

Congratulations, you're off doing marvelous things
While I'm here struggling with my inferior self
I'm so sorry if my pain made you sting
But know your wonderful just as yourself

Finally, a Happy Poem for You

You have asked me to script a happy tune

One in which makes my cheeks blush 

I love sleeping with you until noon

And, particularly, I love the fact together we may be hush

You're too smart for me

And you laugh at my eccentricity

We first reunited by the sea

I shiver at the thought of being known as your toxicity

Devour my soul

Because I like you too much

I know your attempting to make me whole

And all the while, I pine for your soft touch

..................................I truly can't believe I have said this, but its true  

Composition Book

I no longer have clothes in a Bordeaux
Left alone on a hill of lemons
I understand why your taking  it slow
Because my life is riddled with demons

Its hard to breath at times
I recollect you from the past
You step foot in my dreams and sing me a soundtrack for my dreams
Will I be stagnant or unsurpassed?

A marble composition book holds my thoughts
I've been classified a danger to myself
Will I just be trash you toss?
Understand you, I need you; please don't put me on the shelf

Cluster fuck

Locked up
Knocked up
Certainly not prepared for my close up
So hand me your death cup

Stick beside my wounded soul
Can't control the aura of the room
I'm just a character in a role
God only knows how you've presumed

I'm a cluster fuck so to speak
Fell into the lost
I suppose you could say I'm on a losing streak
I think I've paid for my sins, but at what cost?

Grasp

I can no longer grasp
What I need is some saving
Take my hand and clasp
One day could I be a maverick or a maven?

Do I prefer what's solid, or just the shade
Both body and soul dwell in a dark place
Nullify the pain so it may one day fade
Please light up my face

Haunted by angels of ill
Nighttime reigns upon its dark and lethal throne
Thoughts of  loneliness and death perpetually fill
All with an utterance of a sad and chilly tone

Character of Doom

People now define me as the character of doom
One who wears down the inky skies to gray
Delivered fruitless struggles to disengage and doom
One that must hold onto the grass in order to not stray

Deposit me to the sea of hell
Ferocity expounds, and no lulls of tranquil intervals exist
I've became he symbolic tone of the death bell
But when you need my macabre help, it's you that enlists

Certainly there's life beyond the belt of vapor beneath us
Is it treachery or blithe?
I wish I could pine for life with a sensation of lust
But this life is profound with perpetual strife

Web

Woven in a web of grievance
Attempting to rise my head above these inky waters
Is it as simple as having obedience
Or are my words merely fire for it's fodder?

Vivid dreams in the dark of night
Where any sense of joy erodes
Can't wait for dusk to come, where there's a sliver of light
But that too will just elude

Oh how I wish dream upon the day
Where happiness is the rudiment emotion
Time where evil is beckons away
Let me plea for this devotion

Saving

I can no longer grasp
What I need is some saving
Take my hand and clasp
One day could I be a maverick or a maven?

Do I prefer whats solid or the shade?
Both body and soul dwell in a dark place
Nullify the pain so one day it may fade
 Please light up my face

Haunted  by angels of ill
Nighttime reigns his lethal throne
Thoughts of loneliness and death perpetually fill
All with an utterance of a sad and chilly tone

Soul Left Depleat

there's a thin slice of flesh
Lying here on the floor
Blood lay upon the thresh
It's the only way my emotions can pour

My thoughts become translucent
As you banish me to the back
You watch my every movement
I shutter with a panic attack

Life is bitter and tough
An inferno full of heat
I suppose I've had enough
A soul left depleat

Engage

Stoic and aloof
Caught up in a catapillar of a mess
I pine for my heart to be rust proof
I think your perfect. but I don't mean to digress

My family is loosing all of it's leaves
In an attempt to discover inner peace
Familial groans and grieves
As my future lyes in a crease

I don't have to drive
But I suppose this is the golden age
You took my heart and revived
I suppose I must learn how to engage

Epithets of a Song

You're the one I want
Can't keep my mind off you
Through my dreams you haunt
And without you I would have lost faith in mankind

Lace my epithets with a song
Deliver and embody the truth of life
With you I just want to belong
Eradicate all of this inner strife

I blow you a kiss goodbye
Fervor gnaws at your limbs
You tend to only come by as I cry
Just pray this life will provide me with some wins

The Ground

Is there hope within the prison of despair?
Living life within suburban obscurity
Caught up in a living hell's snare
Fraught with perpetual impurity

Perhaps I will die a recluse
Covered in shards of glass peering up at me
Living a sloth's life in the obtuse
Just nod your head and agree

See your slender body
Peering at mygaping wounds
I'm certain I'm not everything you thought I would embody
Need to keep even keel with the ground

Save Me From Hell

Laying stagnant with this disease
Devil's paid my fee
Eradicate the shame please
God it's me

Save me from hell
Walked there with bloody wrists
I hear a toque of the death bell
Shake with skinny fists

Living in a haunted house of black
Pick up those feat
Too many qualities here I lack
March to an alternative beat

Pure As Snow

We're all just human beings
Living on borrowed time
All looking for something to fiend
So give me a shot, tequilla, and lime

Search for peace
Left restless and weak
Hoping the painful thought will cease
On a boat with a leak

Drip, drip, drip
Rain on my parade
Wreck like a ship
Playing without change in an arcade

Smoke rings for my halo
Deam me an angel
Because I look pure as the snow
So now take me below

I'm Sorry Baby

Take this beast
And flea
Have a feast
It's on me
Listen baby
Your too high
Ramble on with your maybes
Sooth the soul with a sigh

Count on emptiness
Left breathless
Tumble among your unkemptness
Stark white on this death list

Valley is too wide
Keep my by your side
I know I've got a big stride
I'm sorry for all I covered up and lied

Terantula

There's a terantula weaving a web above my head
And I'm hung up on defeat
Confront me with my failures, go ahead
There the only thing in my life that seems concrete

Enlighten me with your emollient knowledge
Because I'm in the clutches of evil
Rise above the brackish streets, but will you acknowledge?
Eradicate the hand of failure, and wash away this dose so lethal

Life can be so unkind
Hang a malignant title on my thin frame
I'll never be able to change your frame of mind
I'm just a character who became defamed

I Hate Salad Bars

I hate people that eat in salad bars
And malignancy festers off of me
No celebration here, but fuck hand me a cigar
So step around all of this debris

Unreliable is my middle name
Shimmy and shake with the utterance of acknowledgement
Aren't we all the same?
Yes, heroin became my wife much to your astonishment

A cigarette lingers on the ground
Watch me as I stare into the pavement
Lay here restless and unsound
Thank you for your patience

Why are people attached to me?
Don't you hate me as much as I do?
Leave the ego and find the id
Leave me rythmless and a que

Worn

Haggardly worn
I'm the woman who holds all the scorn
The village attempted to warn
And I can't  be hidden with what's adorned

Flashing signs
Deciept brought brevity
Give me some levity
Your what I pine

Dissappointment is ienvitable
Stream tears from my sullen face
Used the candy to debase
So what's the moral of this fate

Stand all day
Eradicate the pain
Find me a vein
Let it all fade

Banality Exists

I've sneezed
Take life by the sleeve
Just come with me please
I'll cease you as you seize

Demonstrate your thoughts
Put on your green shoes
We are all teathered by faults
What do you have to loose

Give up at this gambit of life
You look ridiculous in your teenage fashions
And I need to put down the knife
...Before you give up on my ration

Yes,banality exists
Throw your arms down
Put down your skinny wrists
And hide away the frown

Potential

Fuck YOU!
With your dope induced wayward smile
You have not a mere scintilia of a clue
Your like a bath tub, missing a tile

I'm beyond mad
You fail to see your potential
You gave up on all you had
And forgot how you were so quintessential

Dull your pain
With substances so illegal
Bring on the rain
Now left a tawdry eagle

Withered Hands

Touch me with your withered hands
Penetrate my mind and forget where I have been
I can't hide my scars because I have tanned
And God only knows how I've sinned

Come let me escape with your tidal wave
Swing around me, make your move
Don't tell me how to behave
I know you'll just dissapprove

Cut my skin
Can't get off the couch
Where's my next of kin
And fuck you, and your pouch

My dad said if you were going to cut...
I should have cut deeper
I feel like such a crazy nut
So brother, are you my keeper

Choose Life

I hate my legs
And I put you in therapy
I am comfortable in caucophony
But, know this past I will shed

Find a spiritual balance
Communicate with others
Eradicate my past's malice
And, I love you mother

A catchy song plays
You laugh because you want to cry
I'm sorry I wanted to die
Life happened, and I delayed

Show me how to live
Fuck pesimissim, give me blithe
And all you do is give
So, for that I choose life

Maelstrom

Panic attack
Heart shakes mad
I didn't just take one, I took the whole stack
So fucker, get off my lily pad

I withered from such great heights
Now my outside is marred like my in
A maelstrom ignites
And I quiver in this skin

Deemed a troublemaker
No one laughs anymore
Stepped foot in hell's half acre
And I'm just a person they cry for

Shake the walls
Rattle my mind
Inner torment that brawls
Is this how I will be defined?

B, I Miss You

Drown my heart in wine
And I hear a tap on my door
God just let me be fine
What's this life for?

Sail me away
Let me escape
I hear the bells on your sleigh
Fuck you that raped

I will always love you
As you found another door
You see me with such askew
And remember who I am at my core

Fuck You Jim

Look at my wrist
This is what you have done to me
I needed yourself to assist
I fickily thought you were the key

I call you on the phone
And wait for you to exist
With you, I only thwarted, not grew
And that's our relationship, as we coexist

You tainted me
Led me down the devil's path
I should have taken my car and fled
You sit, ponder, and now laugh

EVIL is you!
Drift out to sea
You leave me to sit and stew
Leave me alone, I plea

Trace

Let me trace
Because I can't seem to render what's real
Show me your face
And I really think your the only one that knows how I feel

Justify my pain
Bring me to the brigade
I'm just a sand of grain
And I know your afraid

Hide below my bangs, give me shade
All I see are nooses
I feel betrayed
So what do you deduce?

Bees Knees

Take me through the sun lit sky
And let me elope to the inner crevices of your mind
I wish I could just close my eyes and say goodbye
I just want to say a prayer and be with the divine

Close your eyes
Open your arms
I need you to confide
And with you I'll try not to harm

Shake the trees
Maybe the answers are there
I think you're the bees knees
But know I've got this crux of a cross to bear

You know my earthly worth
Bounce on basketball
Can my soul be unearthed?
I sit still, to try not to fall

Swine

I'm entwined in the swine of defeat
And I can't seem to get down with this feet
I thought I was the party of the elite
Just because I have the disposition of sweet

I want to cut myself again
You don't have to feel kind, my friend
I find solace in pain
And they tell me to join society and just blend

I've got deeep brown eyes that's seen them all
And I perpetually have sleepless nights
Congrats to you I think I've hit a wall
And this life fucking bites!!!

Posh

I'm posh with isolation
And my wounds show my emotions
Unfortunately, as much as I try I'm here for the duration
And oh how I wish I was as fleeting as a promotion

I've turned skinny and fraught with pain
I cut myself to no longer feel
I thus scar and maim
And I don't know how to take this life and deal

Why Lord why?
You've given me too much endurance
All I want to do is to say my goodbyes
And fuck I'm on life's stage and need to act in a preformance

Green Knife

I just cut myself with a green knife
Whats this fucking life for
Is everyone looking out for themeselves to score  
And all i wanted was a new way of life                                                              
Take me away        
                      
I sit here wishing I pressed harder       
Im not a martyr    
I dont think there will be another beautiful day                  
So i may not wake in the morn  i say goodby my friends and more likely to my foes    
I left you with such withering woes  
Im simple minded and now torn                                                    

Call Me Ted

Handcuff me and tie me to the bed
I wish I had serpentine abilities, so I could take this skin and shed
Yes, honestly I got into my car and fled
And despite all my wounds, there was only one thing that made me bled

Why do i internalize hate?
And pine to numb all i feel
Stuck...in a stagnant state
I should take this pain and kneel

I'm like a house that's paint is coming off
And I detest my arms, they remind me of all my self inflicted harm
Sick with a perpetual cough
Hush lets not set of these earthly alarms

They tell me the world is blue and green, but all I see is red
Take my body and nourish me as I fed
I have a weight inside that pulls me under like led
I want to hide behind a varying persona, call me Ted

Onion Layers

What's this all for
Pain is all I feel
I want someone to show me the door
And take my onion layers away peel by peel

Do you just pity me
Am I a project
I drown people by my emotions that break the levee
A mere neo-modern reject

Do all people experience a lull
Or am I merely alone
I feel too much, I think I have too many souls
And I think I hear God calling me on the phone

I want to have a transparent mind
And create goodness from my evils
I do have dreams and aspirations in which I pine
I'm so sorry for all of the bloody upheavals

Neon Midget

Waiting along side a grungy carpet
Feeling shy and unsure
Alleviate this moon lit darkness
I may not be too golden nor pure

But there's one thing I do know
Loneliness deplores my soul
So I attempt to slowly go with the flow
Please don't disappoint me, like Santa with his coal

I wish I was a neon midget
I would have a perpetual excuse
So please give me your digits
And eradicate my need for a noose

Perhaps I lack a use
Or my dreams are too big
I can hold your attention and amuse
Fuck lets take a swig

Fat Face

I smoke too much not to be skinny
I feel like a pauper in my own skin
I pine for the days I was mini
Where I was deemed beautiful and thin

Whats happened to me
Play a song that runs omnipotently through my body
And I'm so uncomfortable just to sit, simmer, and be
I cover up my imperfections with a tinge of gaudy

Red lips hide my fat face
And they tell me stilettos are the bloody key
You"ll shutter if I cover in lace
I just want to be free

Pink Moon

I want the salt water to nullify my wound
And I wish I was a bit more inane so I couldn't feel the world's pain
I really am not that smart, or even less...profound
But I know I'm working with a heart that's sprained

So, which will I be?
I could be nothing or everything
I could make a difference and have a decree
And I could nullify or have feeling

I dream of a pink moon that beckons me
And I wish I could just tumble with the wind
Frolic alongside lemon hill and be free
And fuck the daily grind and have a mind

Life is sobering
There's little room for the gentleness of my soul
But some how, some way I keep on soldiering
Perhaps that's the enlightened goal

Autumn Air

Wrinkled hands
Adorned with a pistachio green finish
I watch you peruse and scan
And I pine for an ability to diminish

Beat on drummer boy
Coddle me with your discrepancies
Was I just a decoy
And what do my actions hold in terms of your penalties?

I waste away in the maze of today
Life can be so simple
Darkness enters and then appears a light of ray
And tell me how you live life without a wrinkle?

Although the porch's rail would juxtapose a noose nicely
I cant give into that blundering thought
I tell you this truth kindly
And we sweep things under the rug, because this is what were taught

Please beware of those that stare
Grasp the autumn air and learn to be free
It's blaringly obvious we must get out of the glare of the lair
Does anyone out there agree?

Beguile

I should be gleaming with happiness
But my smile hides the tears
Broken by the oddities of business
And worried their is no salve that cures

Paint my nails melon
Paint a funny picture
But wonder is all that's pretty is rife with venom
And now I stare at the sun and just blister

Called an old friend
Now turned a foe
She told me I was just a trend
And couldn't stomach me to know

Hold on baby girl, hold my hand tight
I have to leave you every once in awhile
And I know you have an abundance of freights
And don't be alarmed by my appearance its not meant to beguile

Old Poem II. (Well Fucker What's Your Vice)

Why don't I ever fit
I slowly draw like a cigarette that's pseudo lit
Why is there such confusion in my head
At times, I find myself wishing I was dead
Pray for me lord
Play me a harmonious cord
Contemplating what life's worth
Am I simply judged by my ever expanding girth
Resurrect my deplorable soul
Watching as my fears is stuck in an omnipotent lull
Why do I have to be deemed so odd?
Just because I dress a bit mod
Take away this gut retching pain
As I walk through this life like a cripple without a cane
People don't play nice
Well fucker, what's your vice
Trust and believe your no better than I
So hop in the car and say your goodbye
A mere farmer with one tooth
How uncouth
Assess your life
Perhaps we can now live with some more blithe

Old Poem I (Razor Blades of Grass)

Walking through razor blades of grass
I'm being consumed by a malignant mass
Can't figure this thing out like a hatch to a cross stitch
Surrounded by a plethora of people that bitch
Empowered by sweet melodies
Fuck, will I be able to persevere with these felonies
I swear all these people are cannibals
Watching all that manifolds
Relieve this perpetual ache
Never satiated by a mate
Smelling an ozone rife with noxious odor
Wait, the devil could have showed her
Forgetting the dubious allure
Wishing my addiction could be a bit more demur
I find solace in this cigarette
Hearing people retort...go figure it
I want to rise above these ashes like a phoenix
Now I'm crying and need a Kleenex
Oh mother, what a mess
I'm sorry to confess
Uncomfortable in this stationary place
Wearing a run down face
Wishing medicine would cure
But it just closes another door
So answer me whats this all for?
And can I have more
Please give me a solution
And eradicate all of my brain's pollution

Oh Dear

We're all in the dog days of hell
Wishing for the cold autumn chill
Clang, there goes the death bell
It's calling me underneath and I think I'm willing to sell

I've got a propensity for anguish
I call out for youth but I'm greeted by silence
I sit here in my own languish
Please dust off my shoulder and tell the demons to vanquish

I drink coffee wishing it were a beer
I can't nourish my belly because its riddles with ache
I wish I could be catapulted out of the stratosphere
Oh dear hold me because all I have is fear

Tears

Sullen and moist with tears
I can't afford to loose the little I have now
All I have is this bundle of fears
I just want to take my skin and jeer

Elope away from this pain
The day is young and I want to let it fade
Tell me where is my yellow laden brick lane?
Fuck the crutch, give me a cane

Edit and delete this day away
Leave the chalk, and give me the eraser
Hope and pray for a blither day
Just let me go back to sleep, and don't bother me as I lay

Toothache

It's hot
But I'm not dying
Toothache dulls the pain as I'm here lying
I wear a raincoat in the rain, but galoshes I think not

I see your eyes condemn the past
You let me sit, placate, and prate
I'll hold your attention as you sigh in aghast
And wonder if I'll take the temptation of this worldly bait

You cry with color
And you sit somberly like my brother
You laugh at my faint breath as I utter
I tell you there's a Holocaust in my head, and I watch you shutter

Chubby Thighs

It looks like summer
And feels like rain
I need to drink more water, because I'm a bit vain
I tend to adorn a scowl, but inside I melt like butter

Shine on me rain cloud
And let the wind flip my skirt
I eat breakfast for dessert
And I wish my chubby thighs would thwart

Come visit me
In my shrine of Buddha heads and Phoenician dyes
Don't be intimidated by my guise
Come look, come and see

Bur, It's Chilly

A polar bear ate my sandwich
And I let the sun's glare on my glasses fry my brain
I suppose being a vegetarian makes me lower on the food chain
But, because I don't suck the marrow of the bone, I have an advantage

I wear my invisibility in my bangs
Shimmy around with a foolish frown
Didn't you know I was the talk of the town
With a flare for the macabre, while garnishing fangs

Ha, my stance is silly
Standing alone with my lacquered heart
I need to jump start
Bur it's chilly

Parker Family Smog

Damn Mom you wounded my heart
We never went hungry
But, were we ever really a family?
All the while teaching us to live with eyes avert

Dot your I's and cross your T's
Cross my legs and fold my knees
Always say your thank you's and please
And when the going gets tough, you may leave

Living life in a shielded fog
Numb your feelings with money and greed
You let malignancy feed
All the while stuck in the Parker family smog

Sketch My Face

Sadness makes me tender
Eradicate my colorless existence
Stand up to the puny rain; we must live in coexistence
I attempt to sketch my face that my memory can't seem to render

I'm powerless to elicit pain
Dream of the summers past
The clouded future is coming up fast
All the while ducking from the concrete shame

All the things I do leave before their through
Wipe the cluttered sky away
Hold on to me tight without delay
Don't leave me cold wading in the waters of subdue

Laissez Faire; You Don't Wear a Bra

This happening without you
Lying around with my laissez faire theologies
I've got a taste for blood, that would leave you cold and blue
There's intrinsic qualities in the depths of psychologies

That's what happens when you don't wear a bra
Your blood starts to boil and your skin begins to crawl
I took your elbow and began to gnaw
As the waves came alongside the squall

Life's Gluttony

Hey you in the ikat weave
I've got a moldy shoe for you
I was once young and naive
Until I became grounded and got a clue

They tell me to be more assertive
And a smile cures a frown
I need to be more tenable and supportive
And not let life's gluttony continuously drown

My sum's not too large
Fuse me so I may stick
Allow my maliciousness to purge
And get me out of this entangled thick

Precipice of Unworth

Here I am all bruised with ache
The needle called out for my diaphanous skin
And I sat apathetically as my whole world quaked
While my presence was pure dread in a frame of thin

I was walking to hell alive
A slave to earthly withers
Falling to my knees with demise
And God granted me earthly shivers

My boots crushed the earth
And uncovered the darkness of the world
Becoming the precipice of unworth
I seized, snatched, and gnarled

Slap in the Face

Public taste is a slap in the face
Ride the tiptoes of a wave just to caress the moon
The sky is too big; I feel displaced
Perhaps I'll crack a smile at the stroke of noon

Do you think my baggage weighs me down?
Or do I just possess an inflamed brain?
In my head there's an army of zealots that live around
They show no mercy, just bestow pain

Man, there's no escape
Drink up the night time light
Swaddle me in an insouciant cape
And give me the might to be alright

Juxtaposition

I've got a sartorial smile
And its buttoned just for you
I've got a pneumatic lifestyle
And you've got a tendency to spew

I appreciate your askance
While I sit in a languid stance
And you take my heart and tap dance
Oh, lets take a winded chance

There's something in the juxtaposition...
Something shiny next to something destroyed
So I ask you whats your position
Don't let your heart wane to null and void

Lost and Found

Everyone is afraid of their life
Some duck for cover, while others puff out their chests
Regardless all of us have strife
And no one is the best

You hear a melancholy tune and I swoon
If your in the weeds, flowers still bloom
Come shield me from doom and gloom
I'm within your lenses zoom

I may be aloof, but I hear every sound
I've let my intellect hinder me
I've been lost, and now found
Enough of this debauchery

Antarctica

I think I see the moon and Antarctica
It's cold outside, I think I want to stick to you
I hear you beckon me with your harmonica
You could help thwart my feelings of blue

I watch as the angels fall around you
My heart will mend, its true
Grateful for your introspective view
Hold on tight, and wait for my debut

I think I want to go back to sleep
Emotions sometimes accrue and multiply
I'm not going to lye, some days I weep, and others I reap
So sing me a lullaby

Daughter's Dance with Death

Living a life where your brothers become a foe
And your mother awaits with baited breath
A family withered by woe
As a daughter danced with death

She lost all faith and trust
Became the talk of the town by her negative ways
A symbolic figure of disgust
As they sat and prayed for her to return to the old days

A nomadic traveling wanderer
Will she ever return?
Perhaps she will be able to again conquer
Burn her previous life and adjourn to learn (from her mistakes that robbed her past)

Don't want to Eat

I don't want to eat
The future scares me
I wish I could drive through life from the back seat
And eradicate all of this debris

I'm afraid to fail
But its entirely too late for that
So lets strip away the veil
I've already fallen on my ass flat

Pick myself up
Dust myself off
Find some body scrub
And clean myself off

Life in Remiss

The devil was wearing my shoes
Don't look in the mirror I can't seem to stomach my face
There's a perpetual hum in my ear; its singing the blues
I'm drifting out to sea, I can't find a stationary place

There's opium in my veins
And nothing but numbness in my brain
Save me before I get slain
From all of this self inflicted pain

Take the wiper blades and clear this fog
Life must be better than this abyss
It's not pleasant when the devil becomes your guard dog
Living a life in remiss

Defrost

Satiate my belly
Fill me with coffee and cigarettes
I'm no longer so deadly
But I'm still hard to forget

Make me laugh
And I'll adjust
Take the sheep; leave the staph
And warn me when I start to tarnish and rust

When I was young I had it all
Somewhere in between yesterday and today I lost
Now I'm back, I may have to crawl
I've been frozen, but always can be defrost

Breeze Penetrates My Knees

I've bought to borrow
I opened the door and nothing appeared
Just the cold embrace of sorrow
And away you've veered

Stillness was then broken
By me, the neophyte, and my silence
I know you can hear me amidst my tone of soft spoken
And my retribution is not an act of defiance

So, I may walk with a shimmy and shake
Letting the breeze penetrate my knees
I may have tears in my eyes, but it keeps me awake
And so as my story unfolds, I'll get there...Just wait and see

Coffee Shop

Where's the nearest coffee shop
Because I don't want to cross the road
You look cute with your mop top
And I thank you for the humility you've bestowed

You say my life is empty
I think yours is void
You believe I'm a bit desperate
And now you've dug a little too deep; I'm annoyed

I wish I had a metal heart
But you've secured me in, and I'm waiting for the parade
Your life has got a head start
And now you've ignited a fire within my head's arcade

Early Morning

Its early morning
And my legs are tired
I hear the sirens blaring their warning
And its you that inspires

Heavens coming home
Give me a fix to put me asleep
And Hells covered in chrome
Fuck! This journey is steep

We are decades away
Pining for a cloudy day
The fire in my heart is here today
I wish I could display my emotions to you, and just stay

Plastic Shovel and a Butter Knife

Your in a funk
And I'm in a mood
You took the Kool-Aid and got drunk
While I entered into a devil's feud

Rigormortis has set into my brain
While you've taken a jet plane to a new life
You armored me to get slained
With a plastic shovel and a butter knife

I take the DART bus
And you take the train
Look at my life with a disdain of nonplus
While I admire you and all of your fame

Makeshift Pedestal

I"m in a fit of rage
Someone stole my purse, and I just can't be saved
I'm on a makeshift pedestal; take me off this stage
Give me some medicine and I'll be well behaved

You don't know where I am going
And I don't know where you've been
Take the Devil's hand and you'll end up owing
Much to everyone's chagrin

I'm just a runner up in this gambit of life
Not domineering enough, and polite too much
My past did steer me to become the Devil's wife
So can you cure me with your soft touch?

Melancholy Wane

What do the waves have to say
Am I sinking again
I'm trying to take despair and slay
Make my melancholy wane

Bring me to the ocean's surface
Create a new way of living
Try not to live in the past, but the current
And abide by the laws of forgiving

Treat mankind for what it is
Breath in the earthly air
What's mine is yours, and all is essentially His
And hopefully then we may nullify despair

Beautiful Anomaly

You leave me wanting more
Try to drown out your calls
I want to shut the double doors
And yet pour from your walls

So I sit and wait for the rain
Fill me up, just to weigh me down
It's not your fault I'm in utter pain
Or that I would leave the smile and take the frown

It's all a bitter sweet melody
Like an inharmonious mess
Yet with you, its a beautiful anomaly
Shit, it's bliss; wait a minute let me put on a dress

Nearest Pew

Don't ask why they say
Just do
Then again just pray
And bequeath yourself to the nearest pew

Holy Fathers relieve me of this ache
There's a gnawing in my head I just can't shake
And keep me steadfast and awake
For goodness sake

Lay down restless on a sleepless night
Feel the moon on my back, and dawn's sun on my face
Dear Lord hear my plight
And grant me a scintilla of your grace

Obtuse Angle

There's a crowd outside
And an army in my head
I thought I found you to confide
By that nearly left me dead

Shadows of the past wane away with time
But you, my dear, will not fade so easily, I fear
I can write about you with a rhyme
And turn my nose up in the air at you, and give you a sneer

Underneath my pristine exter, there's a light
Shining ever so bright like a lonely flame to a candle
And despite my flaws, I may not be pure white
But for your skinny self, I'll be your obtuse angle

Doo-Wop of the Soul

I've got a bit of doo-wop in my soul
I feel like hope is a skip and a jump away
Let's make some laughter, and spike the punch bowl
And adorn a swing dress with a bouffant and some hairspray

I'm back to my old self
With love for the vintage and a smile on my face
I've relinquished the ice back to the shelf
Lets take some paper and retrace

There's fire under my feet
And moonlight on my back
Shield me from this heat
But no longer a beast adorned in black

Victory is to be taken
Brick by brick learn to rebuild
I've been shaken and awakened
And I see the future glimmering with all of its gild

Spider

A spider caught in surpitude
Alone he placates at the moon
Wishing for a beach and a dune
Hoping to retract back to his cocoon

Dissidence follows us at dusk
Caught up in the hair of a corn's husk
Sit, you must not fuss
Its not love, it's modern day lust

Shut the bloody door
Hit the cold and love the floor
We will one day return to the shore
I just ask for a bit more

With each brazen breath
I think of death
And grimace at each known theft
Please hear me, don't pretend to be deaf

Pompous Girl with a Prophetic Pro

Dead leaves on the dirty ground
I've got a cigarette and sushi on the brain
I can swim, but I tend to drown
On a sunny day I pray for rain

I'm a pompous girl with prophetic pros
And I've got a pose for you
I'm a thorn without her rose
But look at the nuances of my hugh

Damask in black
I'll swallow you whole
Proprieties I fail to lack
But I'll take you where the death bell tolls

And at night I come out in the light of the moon
Radiant but a ghoulish sight
My servitude looms
But caution awaits you if I give you all my might; especially at night (by the moon)

Heroine

Heroin, no heroine of mine
It's about time for some goodbyes
For now if I see you, I must decline
Oh how we have had some good times, you flew me to heights so high

All the while I became a trivial junkie
Like a common sheep caught in your herd
You packed me a lunch and I became chunky
In the ghettos I frolicked amongst the birds

You asked me how I felt
The truth is I failed to
I wasted away in a bed as I melt
Living each day so blue

I took a needle, and left the thread
Wasted away with the time
And only for you I bled
I became a modern day war crime

Together We March

We march together us souls in pain
Where the prison walls become a reality
Its not for the takers with hearts of fain
Amongst us a shadow follows with it's depravity

My pain became a numbing feel
Stuck in the creepy vessels of my brain
Bars hide our faces to conceal
Disrespected for your actions too inane

Outcast and downtrodden
A tumor of malignancy grows
Can't allow the space to lessen the horizons we've broadened
We're in the devil's lair in the jaws of throws

Riot in Rehoboth

Riot on the streets of Rehoboth
There's no water to be had
Infect me with your poisonous snaggle tooth
That's precisely why we have rehabs

Damn, there's a good vein
Fun follow me in toe
But that would cause all of this utter pain
And that would be a tragic show

Scratch and gnaw
There's an open door
My nails are trained to claw
Watch you shutter, fall to the floor; there just can't be anymore

Such a Crime

Running in the heat
Trying to get away from this disease
There's dissidence out in these streets
All are ill at ease

Open up your mind
We're out of time
Be so inclined
And give a pauper a dime

Recognize a familiar face
Hear his sweet melodious rhymes
From your memory you can erase
Oh you, it's such a crime

Yellow Face of Doom

In the cave of black despair
I've become part of the devil's brigade
I wear the yellow face of doom to scare
Let the leaves cover me, I need some shade

The weak kill with a kiss
And the strong with a blade
And the gaping grave is void of a semblance of bliss
While the bars symbolize how I've disobeyed

I hear the cackling of the crow
It beckons me beneath the earth
Hear my anguished cries of woe
Tell me what's my empty life worth?

Little Belly

Turn on the bright lights
I now have a little belly
Be careful the jaws of hell do bite
But they taste good with some raspberry jelly

Elope to the inner workings of my heart
The miners are working hard to dig up my lost soul
And answer me this, can you buy benevolence at the local mart?
Because my good and evil need a place to be consoled

Kicks with a Bit of Traction

Dress me up in a sweet heart neckline
But I still taste tart
With skinny fists I send shivers up your spine
Punch the clutch in and give life a kick start

I see the sun up ahead on a gloomy day
Break free from the prison of clouds
Clasp your hands tight and lets pray
We're all individuals amongst a populous crowd

Freedom comes with action
And from action an alleviation of despair
I hope my kicks have some traction
Because this is simply my cross to bear

Cupie and Low

Demon days crept in nice and slow
Splash that jagged little pill down with some water and a stick
Answer me this, where can I get some blow?
Euphoria will be here in one prick

Watch my eyes become cupie and low
Glazed in a haze of eternal oblivion
I think I see the neon vacancy sign of hell as it glows
Stay in this state or deal with reality; where's the decision?

Wince at the pain and then instant delight
I think I see all that glitters is now gold
My skin turns pallid, and then ghost white
Watch as the devastation unfolds

Muffin Tops with Coffee Roll

Daddy needs a new pair of shoes
Take a peaceful girl and rob her of all her wealth in gold
I'm in a bovinity divinity and all you hear are my moos
All the while allowing me to chill, and my soul turns cold

Deception has become your cunning disease
Move over muffin top, I've got a coffee roll
I'll put your mind at ease
While the garnishment on the death bell tolls

Look, jets align
Creates a path of depravity
Eat my fruit, then spit out the rhine
As my hallow heart becomes an even bigger vacuous cavity

Convenience Store

Sell ambition at the local convenience store
Where failure lays in the foyer
Buy a ticket all the while a little unsure
Just to become a neo-modern Tom Sawyer

Purchase your daily dose of energy by the pill
Hand in a penny as an act of solidarity
Toss your soul over the counter like a bill
And win in the ranks of popularity

Eat a hot dog
Wash it down
Stay lost in a mediocre fog
To still reside in the dog pound

Prison

Four weeks in a prison
Had no friends of mine
Take a knife and make an incision
Because all this world does is confine

Pine for the old stage of a past life
And tuck your head, because you don't want to know me anymore
For me, I hear the gates of hell playing their fife
Oh, this worlds just an open sore

Observer

I'm an observer from the window pane
Stuck in this melancholy seat
What's here to keep me sane?
This seems to be a gargantuan feet

Run girl, run; get out of this town
Shadows of the past creep in nice and slow
My lips part and turn into a frown
Why am I living in this agony the gods have bestowed?

Dress me up, but I'm still down
Asking myself why I am still here
Put on some make up, but still look like a clown
Sleepless nights, because all I have is fear

Homesick for who I use to be
I can't bear to hear anymore cacophony
Let the judge and jury hear my plea
But I'm warning you, you won't be able to stand me

The Soul Pays

I've become a trivial comedy
For serious people
Plagued by tragedy
And ruined by the needle

Come visit me in my haze
Dress me up, but I'm still the same
You'll always have money, because the soul pays
And I will go out quickly, like a candle to a flame

Mint and Marigolds

Death followed me as I walked in the sunlight
And I came to a garden  of mint and marigolds
I listened as you harmonized your plight
And we talked of how my soul had been bought, bartered, and sold

I gasped and thought of how tired I'd become of hearing my own name
And how I became a face without a heart
Downtrodden by defeat and shame
You told me not to worry, my life could have a new start

I watched as you drove your car through my street of pain
Posing as a character that fails to suit your aim
Holding onto a future I may not be able to attain
My soul is a terrible reality of this game

Beer and a Bible

I need a beer and a bible
I'm affected by the seven deadly sins
Your words cut, and seem so final
They cut underneath the skin

To define is to limit
And to be a skeptic is to have faith
I'm searching for peace by the minute
Baptize me clean, and had me a loo fa as I bathe

Failure is thrust upon the weak
And your pretty face was bargained for the devil's fee
I listen silently as you speak
And become lost in your omnipotent sea

Innocent Blood

The cold rain began to fall
And I pine to buy oblivion
Silence became a loll
My memory was eating my vision

Wishing for my old sins to be destroyed by new ones
And here emerges my ugliness into reality
The weight of my life is collected by the ton
And death has come knocking at the door as I scream for mortality

My innocent blood has been spilt with one prick
Now I'm in the dreamy shadows of a song
Monotony of the disease has come quick
And I hear the whisper of the devil say, "Here, come along..."

Secret Stash

God Bless you as you sneeze
I've got a thief's disease
I'll have you buckling at the knees
Just say the magic words, please

Release me from your grasp
Oh how I adore your voice of rasp
Come on pass me that hash
I know you've got a secret stash

Inured by this heat
And the crippling words of defeat
Just like I met my dealer in the street
I am sewn shut just like a box pleat

Ali Baba's Mistress

Every comedy holds a tragedy
And the future will be the same as the past
Gravity pulls me towards a calamity
Fuck, the whole worlds going to crash

Fire burns my eyes
And I gather the harvest in the spring
I wear my pallid face to disguise
And carry my anguish like a dwarfed arm in a sling

I hold the greatest contempt for optimism
And I am precociously listless
I'm stuck in this malignant prison
All the while becoming Ali Baba's mistress

Harp When I Die

No one's going to play the harp when I die
Your life was well worth mine
There will be joyous smiles, and no one will cry
I've fucked the ability to ever be divine

Stuck in a labyrinth of the grimy streets
Carry the black hands of jealousy
Grace was yours, mine was deceit
I was worth more than my felonies

I bear the brunt of your crocked teeth
Like gauze to a remedy
I wear the thorns on Jesus' wreath
Just to grant me a little more longevity

Cheese For Breakfast

I eat cheese for breakfast
And toast for lunch
I'll fumble you and leave you breathless
Go ahead and take a big crunch

I'm the cute girl with glasses, whose destroyed the masses
Just turn on your TV, and listen to the APB
I seep in slow like molasses
Just stay with me and you'll see

I've withered gold into gray
And cut life into pieces of your song
You should have walked away
I'm just the scribble amongst the throngs

Sibyl

Oh shit, reality has just entered the room
My name is Sibyl, Sibyl Vane
Punctuality is the thief of time, and our inevitable doom
It looms, and I'm crux upon a crucible of pain

I'm a sinner with splendid sins
Out of my secret pocket crept my soul
Free my soul from this prison and let me win
I hate this stage, but I've got to play this role

You look at me with such disdain
And speak with a touch of cruelty of the mouth
So what, I sow poppies in my garden with the summer rain
Do all evil things point south?

Life came between us
You with an idealistic future, and me with a tinge of cynicism
I fell into the habits of distress
While you practiced recidivism

Miss

Don't call me miss
I'm not your brother or your mother
I'm in a haze of the abyss
Smothered by a stifling big brother

I'm like chewing tobacco
Just use me up and spit me out
I'm not sweat like your hot cocoa
I'll fill your soul with doubt

Catholic school taught me how to be naughty
How to escape reality as it comes alive
This is a true story
Of how the deprived survive

Bruised

I'm black and blue just from thinking of you
Suffering from a bruised ego
You need to find another soul to pursue
I'm just your modern day zero

Fruitless and barren
All my crops reap weeds
An unkempt house left abandoned
No longer with needs to feed

Stunted by the past
With a vacuous present
I'm a stark contrast
I'm a woman with a plethora of dents

Don't Look Back

I'm on the run again
Too comfortable for my own good
I've sucked everything dry, and now its drained
Leave it all behind, as I stood

Don't look back
It's all in the past
Hear the sound of my heels as they claque, and leave a residue of black
The future's open and vast

Don't remember me
Decimate all I've touched
You'll finally be free
Released from my dubious clutch

Squatter

Where's this place called home?
Because I've burned every bridge for miles
I'm left to alone roam
Through all of life's trials

Submerged under water
Brought far out to sea by the current
I'm no longer someones daughter, but a squatter
Simply I'm a tenable nightmare recurrent

Haze

Sit in silence
And wonder where my mind went
Stick a needle in my arm
What's the harm?

Scare you
I may turn blue
Regret everything about me
Just let me be

Clear as day
Remnants of me have faded away
I'm in a haze of blue and red lights
Fighting with all of my might

Eradicate the memory of me
Leave me out to sea
Find another bohemian dweeb
That's more hip than me

Nine O'Clock

It's nine o'clock
And I can't stop my thoughts of you
I knock, but your hearts locked
I want to put you in que

Run through my head
And visit me in my dreams
It's night time I dread
Because these feelings are extreme

I want to singe my memory
Erase you from my mind
I want my heart empty
Please just tell me you've resigned

Dwell in Hell

Read the sign
There's no vacancies here
If you say Hi, I must decline
I'm just too weird

My soul is black
My eyes are vacuous saucers
I'm a clogged artery, rife with plaque
I simply have nothing to offer

I don't fight or flight
I can't mumble or yell
All I know is I will bite
Because I dwell in this living hell

Heat

Beads of sweat coagulate
Come wither away in this heat
Hear my heart palpitate
This game you play has become obsolete

Watch as the sun hides from us
It's time to put the fire out
I feel the world's stress
I must figure out a new route

Splenda

Oh hello there cute curly haired boy
Come sit by me
I'm the real McCoy, but know I will destroy
Pay me with smiles for a small fee

Underneath my sweetness I'm a bit sinister
Strip away my exterior, I'll prove myself to you
It could be 100 degrees outside, but I have the chill of winter
I'll turn your heart icy and blue

Know I'm just like Splenda
Syrupy sweet, yet bad for you
You'll say, "I can mend her"
But if you only knew

Ugly

Imprisoned by a striped dress
And hide my ugliness with a lipstick named Bordeaux
Know underneath I'm revolting, I must confess
Fraught with cover up in the common dress of the Bourgeois

Peel back the layers
Or put some color on my cheeks
I have proven right to all my naysayers
They gave me all but two weeks

Pearls can't make me pretty
Neither can the weight of gold
I've turned into everyone's pity
Jaded, tarnished, and old

Hedonist Mindset

Light light, your too bright
Cloak me with a darken cape
Put me in a ring, I'm ready to fight
Watch as all who observe gape

Swallow the pain whole
Retract those wet tears
Loneliness will be the only one to console
So now there's nothing left to fear

Turn off your phone
No one cares
We are venturing out in the unknown
Stick your nose up in the air, and pretend you have a sense of heirs

Blind them with your eyes of daggers
And snicker with a hedonist mindset
Watch as they all falter and stagger
Your again a huge threat

Cankle

Swollen like a bestial women's cankle
Smothered by this life too cold
Watch out or you might get trampled
By my weight twofold

I have obesity of the heart
I want too much, and can't have enough
I wish you could be my metaphoric dessert cart
One where I could take my face and stuff

I desire you like a famished kid
Starved for your attention
Encapsulate you with a Tupperware lid
So I may gain in dimension

Jaded

I smoke too much
But I don't bleed enough
I'm an inner wound that cuts
And a pesky stain on your sleeve's cuff

Crack me open like an egg
Let the yoke bleed
Hear me yelp and beg
I'm too frail indeed

Pluck my feathers one by one
Leave me stark and naked
This life is no longer fun
Perhaps I have just been too jaded

Pistol

All I hear is silence
Oh what a game
You make me want to be mindless
I know I have created such shame

Blush in the winter's chill
Throw on a sweater and muffle the peace
Why the fuck did I use my free will
I disturbed the inner beast

Snow flakes cry at my cheeks
I wrestle with the fibers of my soul
Have I too quickly reached my peak?
Alleviate all this agony with a pistol.............Please

Melodramatic

Melodramatic, Oh how uncool
Feel the tension within, it makes one drool
Swallow the horse pill down; turn your frown around
Wait a half hour, and you will be flat ass-down

Crawl your way to happiness
Catastrophe can be so disastrous
Cacophony of a love addicted Junie Moonie
Creates a climax where you want to eschew me

Fraught with friction and fright
Let's try this together, hold on tight
Or leave me solo with my jewel encrusted bola
No longer being a hipster's duo

Rump Roast

I'm bleeding grape jelly
Why couldn't you be my toast
You could just sit and linger in my belly
Fuck, I'd even eat you if you were rump roast

Satiate my pain
Wash it down with some tears
My hunger could finally fain
I'll eradicate all of your fears

It's a feeding frenzy
Tuck your napkin in tight
I think this feast is plenty
Oh wait, just take one more bite

Moon of June

Play me my favorite tune
Hide under the covers and never emerge
It's hot out there in the moon of June
Lay here and let our sins purge

Watch you from a distance
And cradle you with care
I'll meet you with some resistance
But I'm no longer in the Devil's snare

Wish for simplicity
Where all was cut and dry
Adore me for my eccentricity
Where I'm the target of your bull's eye

Panic Attack

Hungry but I can't seem to eat
I feel heavy hands against my back
Try to fit into a crowd but I'm too indiscreet
Fuck, here goes another panic attack

Breath in the heavy air
And dream of you there
I watch as people stare
I'm trapped in hell's ensnare

Pick up the broken pieces
Before the weight of the world inflates
I wish this pain decreases
Inhale and wait for our inevitable fate

Tethered

Bitter heart; give it a restart
Bangs sway in my eyes to hide
I look at you and then take my eyes to avert
Have a pithy conversation and in a smile slides

Pull the blinds down and give me some shade
There's an arcade of feelings in my head
As much as I try, my feelings for you just won't fade
Tell me how I can keep my heart fed

Know I'm a mess nonetheless
And you, finely groomed, and put together
I just care about you so much, as I digress
But inevitably I know you will leave my heart tethered

Just Bend

Roll up my life and smoke it away
Inhale the good and exhale the bad
Hopefully my malice will decay
And the high won't make me too mad

Lasso in the sunshine
Wrap it up and save it for a rainy day
Open up the blinds and let in the sunlight
It's time for child's play

Let me drive from the passenger's seat
I can't see where it ends
Hey, there is a hole in the street
Take a left and just bend

Severed Door

Knock at my severed door
Scatter like ants in the rain
I drip sweat out of every pore
And I see your face fraught with pain

Give me a moon bath
And heal me with a sear
I feel the hands of evils wrath
Let me have a life that's plain and clear

My soul is a menagerie of fragility
Withering with the tide
I can't be known for my futility
Keep me in wide stride and cover me to keep me dry

Heaven's Misery

Heaven knows I'm in misery
Watching as my brain wanes away
Crying out for the gods of mercy
Please take me astray

I watch as the cloud cover fawns over head
Strike a match, light a cigarette, and wish for death
I mustered up some tears and watched as I bled
Exhausted from this journey I must catch my breath

All my changes have happened here
But things look bleak and helpless
Just allow me to disappear
I feel like a baby; heart broken and defenseless

This One is for YOU

My memory is stained
I hear you cry for my ultimate revocation
I understand your pained
But do I deserve all of your fucking damnation?

Deem me sexy without knowing who I was
I'm human fraught with demons just like you
Doesn't everyone once in their life run from the fuzz?
Or am I just as fucked up as the other few

I'm sorry I made you cry
And exposed you to my world
The truth is I was selfish, and just wanted to die
Or was it just the way I sat with you while we twirled and swirled?

I don't know if I could ever make things better
The way I use to make you smile with a lick of a lollipop
I left you broken and fettered
I'm so sorry; I just couldn't stop!